So.. Allow me to share a lil bit of mah life.

since 2012 I felt like I've gotten pretty much weaker. It's like I always thought that I'm just a waste of space in this world. I don't know if its depression but it was because of many bad things that happened. I don't know how to explain it all but let's just leave that part.

But these past few months It's like I care less about things right now. I wanted to be depressed because of the problems that my family and I endures. Sometimes I felt like crying but it's just that. I don't feel too much down. I always thought if I'm a bad person because of this. I don't feel too much affected like I used to be.

Another thing, You can't ignore the feeling of being ignored. I kind of felt being ignored always. But I think I understand it. I guess they're not a really bad person just because they don't really care about me. Maybe they're not really attached to me. Maybe they have enough people to care about and I'm not one of them.

I always thought that I'm a socially awkward person. or maybe just a lil bit. I have a low self-esteem. I'm not really confident about many things about me. I don't give a fudge about anything but at the same time I care about a lot. I hate people but I can be attached to a person easily.

Am I a bad person? ;-;

gomen (-/\-) i guess i didn't think much through about my post. HAHAHA, really sorry for wasting a few seconds of your life by reading this shiz.. Meh -w-

i kinda feel the same way. None of that really makes you a bad person. life gets better. I'm kinda just banking on maybe having a more stable social life during college. maybe c.c

Actually i didn't even read it

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Hey gin, I think you should think more about what you're posting.
This person had a issue or just something they wanted to get off of their chest, and maybe didn't know where to turn to.
And that is what the dollars personal board are for.
Your comment is not funny nor do I think that you have actually considered your reply before you posted it. And you write you didn't even read it.
You basically just though that it would be okay to make this person feel like her/his problems are invalid and I'm pretty sure he/she will think an extra time before asking for advice here again, when that's actually the purpose for the personal board.
If you don't want to read it, or don't want to help the persons asking for advice, them simply stay away from the personal board.
I don't know if you're going to read this, but lately I've been seeing others responding similar and it's just plain and simply disrespectful.

Thank you.

Actually, i did read the posts. Yours to. If you see to his response, he actually admit that he write this long post with full of emotion and he noticed it right after a long period(well,with a little help of my mean post)

And yes,thanks for reminding me that people did have emotion. I've kinda forgotten lately.

Thanks, whoever you are, someone, no one, everyone

I think it's the matter of your psychological condition, do you often thinking of something lately? Or just lack of social adaptation, like me.

I sometimes do have same situation, but I don't think that I'm a bad person (or am I?) nor a good one. :p

People are adaptable creatures. Perhaps all the negative events that occurred in your life has triggered the defence in your system so your mind "numbs" itself from unpleasant feelings to protect yourself. Me, I'm not even shocked anymore to hear about the nasty news on TV, even if I acknowledge that it is bad. I've simply learned to "accept it" to an extent.

And the only way to get rid of the feeling of being ignored is to be busy; social interaction with other people, chores, hobbies, clubs, pets, etcetera.

Whenever most of my RL friends are too busy for me, I join a random public chat (like xat or darasu) to spend some time with other people who could potentially become a new friend.

And you can always take some time to relish in depression as long as you figure out what makes you down, and tackle it - don't let it keep you from moving forward because happiness could be right 'round the corner.