Hey everybody

I'm going to highschool in a couple of months and i don't know but i'm starting to get tired of everything, even the things i use to love so much. I mean with my group of friends i am the oldest but to them i'm just the adorable, cheerful, little friend but i know that its not me and i'm starting to get tired of pretending but if i go back to the way i was then i would have no friends and in this society having no friends is a bad thing but i don't know i'm starting to get easily irritated and just don't want to or have the energy to always be the happy one that they think as cute and the one they love hugging, i have been thinking about so many things and sometimes my head is just blank but i feel like i need something i just don't know what i feel sort of empty or something sometimes it's hard to speak like there is something preventing me to speak like choking me and sometimes it just gets bigger and bigger and i don't know what to do

I'm not expecting anything but i'm really starting to get tired of everything and i just wanted someone to talk to because i am not very good at explaining my feeling and i don't really know how to describe it but i guess putting this here is better for me...

Your situation is far too real to me. I'm not good at expressing myself either. It annoys me because I never know how I come across. There's not much to say. You pretty much covered it all though. I'm actually quite impressed. You seemed to sum me up better than me
...life just drags on...our unfulling lives continue...we stay lonely even though we have friends...and no one will be able to understand us because we can't express our selves...that's just life...but life's so unpredictable that who knows what will happen in the future
Well I don't know what I'm going on about...If you really wan't someone to talk to who's as lost and empty as you then feel free to email me at toforeversigh@gmail.com
I don't usually do this but what you said was just too much like my situation for me to ignore...You don't have to talk to me but feel free to if you want to.

The feels. I can relate to you, I lost interest in the world long time ago. I have friends, someone special, my family loves and cares about me, but they just doesn't appeal to me anymore. I still do the things that I enjoy before, but right now I'm just doing all of them to kill some time and not because I'm having fun. I'm so tired of the world, I stopped going out there. I can't advise anything to you, just wanted you to know that you're not alone.

There's nothing wrong with how you feel, it's my opinion that if you accept that you can begin to breathe a little easier. If you don't feel interested enough to do anything that's ok.

...this actually happened to a friend of mine a while back. He was just going through a phase at the time, he wen't back to his old self more or less after a few years. I'll admit I didn't hang out with him during that time, and we were nearly best friends before. He tried to 'act' around me initially until one day I pushed him to admit he wasn't the same anymore (not so much to admit, rather reveal) and we sort of left it at that.

To me, you owe it to your friends to be honest with them. You may have to masquerade around the whole world, but your closest friends deserve more than a charade. You're not good at expressing yourself? Maybe start with "I'm not the same person I used to be". You don't have to expect them to accept you for who you are any more than they should expect you to be the way they want.

Thanks guys

I think you should just tell them, a lot of people change over time so it is natural. But it is your choice what to do in the end. Do which ever you want to.

>>1 as previously stated, people change, all the time and we all have multiple personas and roles to fill and sometimes they get uninteresting, boring, annoying, etc. If your friends are friends with you just because of one persona that you show doesn't really mean that they're good friends, good friends stay by your side because they are there for you, not just a part of you. You shouldn't always be forcing to be someone that you're not, be who you are. Not having friends isn't necessarily a bad thing, having no friends is better than having bad ones. You'll find someone eventually that you can relate to, that can be tricky in highschool so it's understandable. You could also try talking to your friends, hopefully they understand.

Seeing what you said, I can relate in some ways. I was going to voice my opinion nut you seem to have some pretty good answers hear from people in similar situations. I hope the best for you in the future! Good luck! ^_^

As >>8 stated, people change at different points in their lives, especially transitional periods such as making the change from grade school to high school. Keep in mind that these feelings you have towards your friends are likely the cause of you unconsciously distancing yourself from them.

Freshman year was difficult for me, I was the only kid from my school to go to the high school where I've just graduated from. I was often depressed, rebellious, condescending, and belligerent. Realize that this is all the cause of the large transition which you're currently going through.

Keep in mind though, that everyone changes, and that everyone has gone through what you're going through now, you aren't alone in it.