look, I've settled things with my ex, her friends, my friends and the familys but i still feel depressed sometimes, i just feel like fading into the background, then i'm really REALLY exited and happy and have a lot of energy and then its like i don't want to exist again, all of a sudden, i don't think i'm bipolar, that stuff is way to serious for a stupid thing like this, and i cant see a doctor about it, and i don't want to tell my parents, because they will just laugh at how ridiculous i am being (i know i have an amazing family and a good circle of friends so what is it) does anyone know whats wrong with me, i cant live like this anymore, help? -______- i feel stupid for asking.

>>1 that sounds like manic depression not bipolar, it's when you have extreme highs and lows. You are not stupid for asking. My advice to you is to find yourself a hobby to take your mind off of the things that are making you feel worse. Focus on the aspects of your life that make you feel better. If it gets worse or you're having a really down day, maybe try talking to your friends and family, they're there to support you. You can always come here, the Dollars are here for you ^^