Well, I'm not sure where to begin but I'll hope you guys would eventually come to an answer if any of it makes sense. I was given social security checks each month, as this lasted up to this very month beginning from October 2013. Reason I received it? Depression, Something I've hidden well enough with my usual happy go lucky behavior, I've always wondered of the guidelines and became wary of it so I passed on the responsibilities to my mother, Allowing her to pay the rent of the home in which I live with her. I occasionally get some games here and there but the main focus of the money was for the home that I wanted to remain living in. Then comes that day, When my mother tells me how they will stop because I show no signs of depression, I.. was rather angered but at the same time conflicted, until today of wen this post is up, My mother tells me because I follow rules, Because I'm behaving how every good student should behave, That's why it's taken away.. So what I'm supposed to be a emotional wreck? I'm supposed to be someone that will go over the edge with just one misplaced word..? And thing is, I'm dangerous.. ok exaggerated but rather I feel that way because of my depression, I end up becoming violent, both in near-physical and vocally. Chances are I lost you guys by then but point is.. Should I fight against this kind of ordeal? Or should I behave how they want me to (Depressed) for the sake of money, and I'm not job-capable either due to multiple physical and mental issues outside of depression. I just need something to bring in closure because my mother.. Seems like she failed in the parenting department.. I just need an answer..

People who get social security for reasons like depression kind of piss me off.
Get a fucking job and get over yourself.
Life fucking sucks for everyone.

Either that, or maybe one of your other job hindering physical or mental issues could get you more autism bux.
Go you.

>>2 Great, Thanks for the help. I feel better now!
And you realize the sarcasm by now..?

I don't mean to be rude at all, but-

They really give people Social Security for depression? .__. Were you getting that on top of Unemployment or instead of it?

I mean, how is sitting home with checks coming in going to help your depression at all? The only way my mom ever got out of it was to suck it up and get a job. Going out and doing shit is what broke it. I can't believe your mother and the gov't itself are enabling you like this.

I don't think your mom is cutting you off for the right reasons, but I think cutting you off is the best thing she can do for you right now, honestly. You need to get up and get out. I know it's hard. I've been in your shoes and have seen others in your shoes. But you're not going to get any better like this, Jinx.

>>3 If you're looking for condolences, I offer mine, but I have not once seen >>2 offer, much less give, the legendary "fuck".

Anyway.

Be you. Money is material. It can be replaced. Sometimes shit happens and things go awry. Time moves forward, and so should you. I understand "get over it" isn't what you want to hear, nor would it help very much, but if you can find a way to not mooch of the gov't with social security checks, then by all means. Shit, man, become a telemarketer. You sit at home, repeat the same few phrases for some company who will pay you a couple dozen times a day, and you're done. That simple. Just a thought. If you feel so bad that you think your mom has failed as a mother because "her child is that messed up," do something about it. TRY to better yourself. If not, try bettering someone else's life/lives. Usually you'll feel better afterward. There are many jobs that don't require too much. I obviously see you can type, so throw a few codes in your head and stroll on over to a blogging company and offer your thoughts on the occasional post. There's a number of ways to obtain the money you seem to seek, aside from being depressed and trying to hide it.

Open your eyes, put your big boy pants on, and get your hands dirty.

Honestly I should do the same, considering I don't even have a job (nor the focus to do so, in my personal opinion).

>>6 Then you haven't fucking been here long enough, or you're a fucking moron.
I give plenty of fucks.
I care and love on a level you are, and probably will always be, incapable of being.
I give people what they need and not what they want.
I'm a fucking godsend.

Other than that, I agree with your point to OP, Ao.
100%.
+2

>>7 I've only been here a few months xD I haven't seen it yet. If I have, I wasn't looking hard enough

>>1 seems to me like you're wanting to take the easy way out by relying on your depression to the point of faking it. That's wrong and also unfair to you're mother as well as your own future. You can't just sit at home forever, you need to get out sometime. Life can get you down and lots of people get depressed but that doesn't mean that you should just stop trying to better yourself and working. Get out there and work. It doesn't have to be much, like >>6 said, but you need to do something productive otherwise you won't be able to move on or help your mother let alone yourself.
Depressed or not, mentally ill or not, life is hard for everyone, get out there and work like the rest of us.

>>7 this.

If you reside in the USA (and possibly this exists in other countries) have you ever thought of joining the Peace Corps?

Thanks for the suggestion guys. During the process of looking into it. Seems I can be able to work. I just have to take it easy if anything. Although after realizing I'm in the Spectrum of autism. They're just looking for anyway to remove it. I've been volunteering lately at a Food drive and got the hang of organization and management of the items. Although I'm having slight troubles being social. I was able to get better at it. Only downside is that my feet are blazing. All that aside, I've come to the conclusion that If the appeal either succeeds or fails. I'll begin working at a market, I plan to go to college so might as well plan it out. Although I can't find big boy pants.. I think the lederhosen is the last option..

>>11 Great job, OP. Proud of you.
See, it's really not so bad once you get out there.
Also, I'm sure that 90% of us here fall into the autism spectrum, most of my friends would fall into that too.

>>11 Haha! Glad you got your gumption back :D Hope to hear more from you soon!