It's how the title reads. I've been thinking about committing suicide for a couple months now but I never go through with it because I don't know.

I just recently got out of a relationship with someone who I loved very much, but I knew I couldn't love them enough because I was just too...sad. I don't know why and I miss them very much (I see this person very day).

I feel ignored by everyone, but at the same time, I ignore people too. I sound like a hypocrite when I say this but as much as I enjoy being around people, I don't like people either. I don't know but the friends I thought that were my friends don't even think twice about me, or even consider me a friend.

Home is a completely different story. Mother is never home or doesn't have any time to give me attention. I live with another person and there are times where I feel like...I get scared to live in my own house. I used to be able to go out to a friend's house when I felt bad. I snuck out the window occasionally but my windows are locked now. I can't leave.

I'm not trying to search for attention or help or anything really. I just needed a place to say this...

>>1 first off please don't kill yourself. It sounds like you're lonely, good friends are hard to find so it's understandable. You're also getting over a break up so it's normal for you to still have feelings for that other person, moving on takes time so give it time and it'll get better. Be nice to people and you should be able to find a good friend.

if you got out of the relationship there was probably a good reson. people enter into your life and exit. it may hurt npw but you might find it's for the better, and you have many toher wonderful and not so wonderful expiriences comeing. DFON'T THROW YOUR LIFE AWAY!!!

"The world is not as cruel as you take it to be." -Celty from DRRR!! I'm on the same boat as you, but I keep on repeating that line in my head. Somehow it makes me feel relieved. Goodluck and please don't kill yourself.