I'm really bad at expressing and explaing my feelings into words so I'm sorry if this turns out REALLY crappy xD

So I'm 13 and soon to be 14. I'm not going through a gender confusion or anything like that, but it has to do with it sort of. I think ._.

Anyways, I'm a "girl" Or whatever and I want to be a dude blah blah. Well, sir or ma'am or neither v.v. I don't want to become a dude. It's more like I need to :D

Why? Will as you know or a lot of people say. God does not make mistake.

No, I believe he does not. So.. Maybe I was born in this awesome body for a reason.

And I probably know why.. It was probably because I wished to be born in it "again" maybe. Because.

I met amazing people in this life because I'm this way. And I even met someone I can love, maybe.. ._." That's just sad I know v.v

This is actually my second time writing something about this,.,
I deleted the first one because it had a spelling mistake ._. lol

Anyways

I accidentally clicked create new thingy so it posted it when I haven't finished ,.,

If anyone want to ask a question please go on ahead. I actually need someone to ask me logical questions so I can find out more about my own opinions but I can't seem to think of any XP

So....what are you confused about.....sry I couldn't get what you were trying to get across here.
If your confused about yourself I would just say that who you are is awesome and you need to just look yourself in the mirror and think "this is who I am, I'm going to take who I am and freaking rock it"
I know that kinda sounds dumb but honestly I think that we all have a way we were meant to be and I think we all just need to figure out what that is and do it, God doesn't make mistakes, Your not a mistake.

>>1 you might have Gender Dysphoria. I suggest going to a psychologist and/or a therapist to help clear up some of the confusion.

I'm with >>4, you haven't been awfully clear on the situation. We need more information to provide any help.

>I'm 13 and soon to be 14

Found your problem, OP.

Actually XD I've been like this since I was 4 :3 It's either because I never had a dad to take care of my mom before and that I'm trying to man up and protect her. But I'm not sure. I'm fine with being a girl, but it does not feel right. And No I do not have a fake symptom called "Gender Dysphoria" That is just a name to treat people differently because they think differently. A basic form of bullying through science owo

Everything below 3 years old, I can not remember. But when I was 4, I saw myself as a boy. But when puberty hit, my self conscience came and ruined my image. I was unable to see myself as a happy person that laughs with friends anymore for 3 years, but then now I'm starting to fit in and everyone doesn't seem to mind me dressing like a boy or anything like that or just to scared to say it to my face ^^

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>>8 "a fake symptom" seriously? I'm trying to help you here. It isn't fake nor is it a form of "scientific bullying", how do I know this? I have a friend with that condition. It isn't bullying at all! It's a legitimate diagnostic that psychologists use, it's not a bad thing, it's recognizing that Gender Dysphoria is real and shouldn't be frowned upon, shunned upon, and that there are ways to help people with it, ways that may include a sex change operation and hormone treatment and further understanding of the condition. I'll say it again, go see a psychologist or a therapist and they'll help you. That's what my friend did and it helped him out.

It is not literally fake but it's more like a type of word that can really make people feel like "weirdos" or "monsters". Plus. It is only a description. And a word. xD I'm not offended MUCH. By it. But I don't want others that may have the same problem or other problems related to be more hurt. I never really like seeing others hurt especially when I know what they're sort of going through a little bit. And Sorry if I have spelling mistake, I'm not use to typing so fast on computers ._.

>>8>>9>>12 Oh. My. Grod.

>>12 .... I..... no I shouldn't.... maybe..... no just no.

>>12 no it's not a bad word! Do I have to spell it out for you? It's. A. Diagnosis. Get that? It's NOT an insult so don't act like it is because you're only hurting the people who actually have it and appreciate the fact that A LICENSED PHYSICIAN has given a name to something that other people looked as "not a problem" or "stupid". It's not a derogatory term, get that in your head.
Now you can either go to a professional for help or stop complaining and figure it out for yourself because if you ask for advice, you'd better take it and not brush it off. You know, for future reference.

I'm not sure you know what you are talking about. You should perhaps do some research on this topic.

Medical diagnoses are not what makes people feel like '"weirdos" or "monsters"', it's other people that do that trick. It's people that misunderstand or ignore the science, and assume they know what the condition means. You are starting to sound like one of those people more and more.

>>15 You got a trip?
Cool.

>>16 maybe I overreacted a little...

>>17 Oh, that was directed at the OP, sorry.
I was getting angry at "That is just a name to treat people differently because they think differently. A basic form of bullying through science".
It disregards hundreds of years of research intended to better people's lives as segregation, when in reality it is people like the OP who misunderstand the terms and appropriate their own meaning to them.
Sorry for the confusion. xD

>>19 lol it's alright, no worries X3 it pissed me off too.

I didn't mean it like that. It's just a very uncomfortable way of discribing someone. It's like treating someone that is perfectly healthy, like they have a disease. But of course I guess that could help many people make excuses to become transgender but using a word is almost like using someone. Taking advantage of it. Most people don't understand. I'm sorry if I'm making you guys angry but it's my opinion, and I truely respect yours back ^^

Oh my god. Oh my god.
Do you even know what gender dysphoria is? If you're a biological female who is psychologically a male and wants a male body, then you are very, very, very likely to be experiencing gender dysphoria. It's a discontent with one's biological sex because it doesn't match their gender identity, and that's what you're describing.

Or maybe, kidz is dum :^)

>>23 Also this.

>>21 This reaffirms my opinion.

Also, have you ever considered that most people experience confusion towards their sexuality around your age? I know I did. I find it hard to believe you knew what you were at 4, that's pretty early considering sexual development doesn't happen until later. This is all based on my limited experience so I could be wrong. However, I think you'd agree when I say it's difficult to concretely determine anything about yourself at your age.

To confirm you. Not all kids* are dumb :0 If you are against my way of thinking then I shall respect you for it. It is my own opinion after all. I wrote it here in the dollars because I thought there could possibly be other dollars out there that mate need help too. But as I expected it's still the place we all internet, where people can continue their lives anonymously while hurting others feelings without knowing it. Maybe people can be suicidal and yet you encourage them can be the cause of death. ^^

OP your just simply very confused. Your in your teens thats when shit happens that confuses the hell out of you.

>>26 That is insulting.

The reason people are responding angrily on your thread or making fun of you is not because "it's the Internet", it's because of your misunderstanding of what you are talking about. Ironic, considering you believe we are all attacking you for what you think, when it is the other way around now. Implying I would condone or encourage suicide with that emoticon nonsense tells me you don't know or care about what you are talking about.

I hope for your sake you are just bad at communicating, and that I am totally misunderstanding everything you say.

to Someone I know what your going through, its pretty tough. Find good friends and just do what you think is best for yourself. you don't need anyone's advice on who you are. Kind of preachy but trust me you know yourself best and regardless of whats normal you are you.And to anyone calling it a mental disorder it is considered one yes but it really isn't. Its just stigma left over from old school psychology. Not that I'm going to argue about it.

Guess it's time for me to step in with a book.

First off, I'm going to explain knowledge. Knowledge is created. It does not simply exist. If someone has defined something, it becomes something to be learned and that's what it is. You can argue for days and days but there is no changing that. If you have a problem with it being what it is, then get up, do your homework and change it. Throw yourself into the field of psychology. Arguing like this is damn irritating when half of you don't even /get/ it, just making your own judgments based on how /you/ feel. Would you rather be looked at like people looked at strange and different humans in the early 1900s? Like some kind of witch or demon?

So, here is something I will attach to this. You obviously aren't normal. Which isn't a big deal. Who the hell is? Get over it. You have a rare disorder of the mind that has a lot to do with the metaphysical. Your core mind is male while your physical form is female. Regardless of the circumstances that may or may not have brought about this, you have a few options from here in.

The first is to ignore it. I don't think I need to explain this but this method suggests that you no longer doubt yourself. You think it's right and will simply deal with the problems as they come.

The second is to ask for help. This implies that you think it's wrong. Hell, you being here shows that you think it's wrong. You seek to change yourself, to revert to normalcy.

The third is to transcend it. This is an indifferent method. You understand it doesn't really matter, that the problem itself is actually trivial. It's not like a severely crippling mental disorder that inhibits your daily functions.

There is nothing wrong with any of these methods. I don't know why you came here to reveal your problem and then decide to argue about something that is barely relevant.

If anyone has something to add or fix, please, by all means. I'm no expert on the subject.

And for my off-topic post, I shall make a new one.

All kids are dumb. Even the geniuses and gifted ones. I was gifted and even I understand how stupid I was back then.

Intelligence without wisdom brings destruction and is meaningless.

Wisdom is only gained through experience. People growing up don't have experience, as experience is only gained through time. No matter how smart you are, if you cannot apply it, it means less than nothing.

Hence, all kids are dumb, especially the ones who don't understand this fact. This isn't meant to be insulting, though I imagine a good number of you will feel insulted. That feeling is a sign of your inexperience and a good place to start.

>>31 I hate how that is true.

>>32
Me too. I could have changed so much, avoided so many problems if I had understood this earlier.

>>31 This is way too true.
Also, it's astonishing how much smarter your parents become after you turn 20-ish. I don't know how they learn so much in that time, but when I was 15 my parents were idiots.

>>34
Probably because of inexperience, impatience. Then they went back and actually thought about things. Remember, parents are just like their kids, in being human. They only have more experience. And recently, times have been changing so quickly that it's hard to keep up.

Admittedly, I don't actually know about this. My parents have been in the grave since I was eleven years old. I can only make logical conclusions based on what you said.

>>31 I wish I had the wisdom that I have now, when I was much younger.

Being gifted and out smart everyone doesn't mean you don't do mistakes. But one cannot achieve wisdom from other's experience.

>>34 *raising a hand* Same here...

>>1 I think I know what you are saying. You had to help your mother. So you became stronger. But don't worry. There is no problem. The boyish behaviour that you have now will pass away, in time.

As a kid I was the "boy" in my family. I have a sister, my age, and she was always a damsel in distress. And someone had to be the guy, and do all the hard things, right?

You are not a guy, and you will get used to know you are a girl. Thought you will have those moments when you say "Oh, I am girl! Damn it! I forgot again." XD

It is just something for the moment.
I'm not going to say anything about psychologist, because I don't trust them too much. They called me weird and then they said something amazing about me. THAT was confusing... and I thought I was the weird one XD

>>36
LMAO@The end. I don't know about psychologists myself. I think they help to give direction when you have no idea which way to turn but psychologists are human. They do dumb shit too. I should become one but then people would probably look at me like they look at psychologists now. I think my current self works better...I'm smarter than them anyway. I don't need to prove anything.

Thinking about what you just said, I also was in the same situation. Well, similar. I am not an only child but I was raised like one by my mother. I think I've seen my dad...uh...three times before he died? I've always been around women. Nothing but women. So much so, when the times came to be a man, it didn't work the way I wanted to. It's hard to tell if it is because of my original personality traits or because of my situation but I would overdo things, like I was trying to compensate. I don't know. I was under a ton of stress. I didn't have time to be concerned with it. Too busy being an adult and caring for a dying person, a.k.a. my mother. What I do know is, people did question me for a while. I wasn't aware of what I was doing wrong but apparently I was extremely feminine and the boys/men of my family are pretty manly.

Well, here I am now, an almost perfect mixture of both mental traits. So I can agree, the traits should even out. If they do not, you can worry about it later, when it really matters. It'll be easier to make a proper decision with some experience too.

>>35 I was more referring to the kids.
It takes the children 5 or 6 years to realize how much their parents actually know.

I am also very sorry to hear about your parents, that must have been very hard.

>>11
Feels sorry for you

>>12
Stop interpreting things wrongly. You are hurting someone through the internet too. Why blame it on the internet when its the circumstances one lives by that instigate them to hurt or bully someone. If you find that you cant express yourself well in terms of writing then try using less harsh or insulting words.

It really seems very childish if you call it bullying. Either way, i believe >>11 was genuinely trying to help you. By say what you said it looks like you are trying to be different. I personally hope you clear up some confusion and i wish the best for your parents.

But i wld like to point a thing out , your failure of communication on this post is forgivable if you try to re read and answer questions properly. Yes you are in your teenage years and you probably have more knowledge to come . As you experience lesser, which you might not know, I do not think you know what is actually going on. Suicide is not funny, depression does not come by easily, people nowadays assume they are depressed when they are not

*Most of them are teenagers

Verbal cyberbullying might hurt someone when they are overthinking some situation. Stop raging , because no one can understand each other 100% , we all should know that



I hope this helps

sextuple post.
Whoa.
How about you not rape the reply button, please. :)

This thread. This thread is why I love Personal.

>>45
sorry i cant help it >_>

>>38
WELL SHIT. Your post was a little ambiguous to me.

Was it hard, going through that? Hm. Dunno. Maybe. Hard to remember how I felt, since I cut off the related emotions.

Well, like I said, I don't know about all of that. I didn't have guidance for most of my youth. My bad for my misinterpretation of your post. I did experience this later down the line though. Spent my some of my high school years with my strict aunt and uncle, only learning a couple years down the line how right they were. Good times.

On the other hand, where the hell is our lovely OP? I'm getting bored here.

>>52 Ah, my sense of humor is...uh, well I like to call it subtle. It's just really obscure and limited.

I am alone in my group of friends that I have the utmost respect for my father and always have. I think he's really smart and I like talking to him and working with him. None of my friends feel the same about their parents, though.

It kind of looks like a minefield in here with all the deleted posts. :D

lol sry

>>55 minefield XD
>>56 You keep on posting and deleting? XD What did the Reply button did to you? X)

Nah i did smth to the reply button o_O