I have another problem.....

There's this girl, we used to go out, then we break up and then cycle begin again. Last two weeks, I've had enough of it. So I told her, 'I wanna break up and be friends.' So we did just that! I should be happy right? The thing is I can't break away from her, she's my drug addiction you could say. Anyway the week after this happened I found out she HAS a bf! Good. I guess...
But I still have strong feelings for her. Maybe I'm just desperate I asked myself one day, but seeing her with her bf and hearing her complain is just.. ugh... I feel like I'm not her actual friend just some one to complain to about her life. Truth be told I'm sick of it, but like I said I can't break away from this girl she's very sensitive you see, and today she told me she needs me as part of her life. Butt feels like she doesn't care about my feelings, any interest in my life, no effort whatsoever and it hurts me so much! I sometimes call her a slut behind her back, I know that's bad to do and I have no right to do so but this girl ... ugh can anyone help me on this or least give any advice? I'll appreciate it.

She also says you're a good friend! When I'm not obviously. I talk behind her back, saying she's a slut. (Which I previously mentioned.) I've done a lot of things, and I sacrificed my guy friends for her, because they wanted me to pick sides on! And I did chose her, be cause I'll do anything for her. But now, it's different! I started to hate her actually... so really I'm not a good friend at all! Just in another jerk.
Oh yeah! When the so popular girls started bullying her I stood up for her but when the same thing happened to me, she did nothing, nope just took their side... sorry for the rant I just need to put down my feelings Down.

'Another postage? Omg!"

I know you guys might say I don't love her anymore, maybe now that's the case. If so, then so be it.
(Update; forgot to mention I have another girlfriend.) I should just appreciate what I've got right? Forget the previous girl just move on! I'm pathetic because I simply can't I can't get away from this other girl (Mentioned above) I'm stuck between she wants/ needs and what I want! This is the advice I need on. Its like I'm stuck in an endless cycled twilight zone! (I'm a nerd for bringing that up?)
This girl I'm dating is(I hate to compare) so much better yes I might keep her. Might marry her. Who knows? I have mention this to her, that I was dating this friend but she acts like she doesn't care (good thing?)
I hate love triangles but this the way it so happens!
I'm confused on what to do. Suck it up? I'm way of a coward to do so. So yes help is needed. And again I'll gratefully appreciate it! <3

Have you think that she don't love you as you do? Well...she didn't care about you as you do...don't help you...and even she's selfish! You have to stop hurting yourself more than you've done, buddy. She's only one more selfish girl...I know you love her, but she don't love you.

Well...the situation changed and I didn't think you would post right now...

Yes I have thought if that. Even to this day. But there's a partm maybe half of my natural instinct(?) That its not true, that she's very insecure about herself and perhaps she DOES needs me. That within me is the conflict.
>>5 Yep. Very unexpected regardless I still need some help, I know I used to like her, and I now feel hatred towards her (Even though I still love her a bit?) But like always unable to really 'understand.that make sense!?- As for my gf I told her and she just shrugged, which is good I guess. Its difficult emotions I guess!!

The question I have to ask is are you looking for love? If you are then you are just looking for the best option as opposed to the perfect person for you. To love someone is a really big thing and shouldn't be something changed easily. In theory, you will know without a doubt who the right person is for you. It's probably not either of them. But this is just my perception and I think it's possible for there not to be a perfect person for you or that you won't meet them. Anyway, my biggest piece of advice is be as picky as possible. Make sure that they're the right person for you and that you aren't just settling for someone. These are all my opinions on what you should do. I hope it helped.

>>1 listen, you need to let that girl go, as a friend and as a lover. I know that sounds impossible but sometimes you just have to go for it no matter how painful it may be. She's almost like a poison, she's basically using you, she has her own boyfriend to go complain to, she's obviously not treating you as a friend if she's not sticking up for you. The best solution, most of the time, is to tell the truth, tell her that she's hurting you and that you can't be her friend anymore because it's too painful. Walk away and take the time to fall in love with your new girlfriend without thinking about your first girlfriend. I hope this helps! ^.^