>>1 I understand what you are going through, I just "rose from the dead". Remember that everyone can intentionally make a change.
I was just finished with my depression phase. My academics got fucked up, my family treated me like a crazy person, my girlfriend and I broke up, and the people who I used to live with were such pricks. This loneliness totally stopped my productivity. I was a total bum. I was a hikikomori. Time left me behind.
Have you watched LOST? I spent my bum days watching the whole series. Jack Shephard told a story about letting fear kick in. That's what I did. I gave myself time to be miserable then I promised not be lonely, depressed, and unproductive after my set time.
A good mindset does help a lot. Having a growth mindset (google for definition) can give you a better attitude for your activities.
I also talked to my old, trusted friends. Your true friends will get mad at you if you don't tell them your deep problems. That experience helped my realize what my problems were.
Now, I'm trying to clean up the mess I have caused and, little by little, I'm doing things I enjoy. Well, I'm still planning them, dreaming about my good future. I'm thinking of ways how to earn money to buy stuff for my room, a bass guitar, an electronic drum kit.
And after getting my shit together, I set new goals.
If you have the option, you may consider changing your life "trajectory", point it towards something you will enjoy more.
"Rest if you must, but don't quit"