>>1 Your parents' lives are not your problem anymore. You've done enough and gone through enough of it already. You can't really do anything about them, they're adults and they'll deal with their problems by themselves. Now what you need to do is start focusing on school and doing well enough that you can move out after graduation and work and support yourself and maybe even your mom if you can later on. I know that it's tough with school and all but if you're worried about food then you should really get a part-time job, I agree with what
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Now stop thinking so negatively, easier said than done I know but, it's essential, be optimistic about your future. There's nothing wrong with being anti-social and book loving so don't try to change yourself, there is nothing wrong with you. Don't hurt yourself. Don't think about suicide. It's never the answer. Ever. If you think you need help then see a psychiatrist when you can. Focus on your future and making it a bright one. Anyone can make a nice future for themselves, it takes work and compromise so keep at it, keep working for it, you'll get there one day and you'll have friends who care for you too. I hope that I helped, don't be afraid to ask for help here, that's what the dollars are for :3 <3 let us know how it goes for you if you want. ^^