Hello! :)
I want to share some thing with you guys because I think that maybe you will understand me.
Everything started in September. I came into the new school. Firstly I thought that everything will be fine after all because I was scared shitless during summer holidays. It was indeed. But things changed after.. how many, 4,5 weeks? I have second language Italian and there are those football players. when I first time came there I thought that it will be fine. You know they were like really kind and stuff and I was like "Yeah I will be popular, they like me." I made some good friends and I had good time. Well, everything good has to end right? So those boys started to shouting at me what I was walking past the corridor. And after few days it was more than names. they have started to mocking me. even those girls I thought they were my friends started to spread things about me and one day I asked my classmate why is everyone like this to me and she just said that everyone is making fun of me. I live in dorm so try to imagine how hard it is for me. She said that even she is making fun of me and she said that she won´t stop if I won´t stop her. The one problem is that I don´t know how to be rude to people. I´m always kind and I used to smile and laugh a lot. Everything has changed and I have been doing really bad things to myself. Sometimes I just think that I should end all this and maybe everything will be better. if you think that "I should say it to my parents" you are wrong. There are things I would´t tell anybody not even my parents. I hope that someone of you will understand me... I guess I´m done here :)

I don't know what else to say but sorry that happened and life can be real shitty sometimes but it gets better in the end

>>1 School is shitty, and it is ABSOLUTELY not worth it to kill yourself over. People can be mean and cruel and they gossip, etc, etc. but you can't let it get to you. Once you graduate, things will get better. Honestly it's easier to be alone at school than dealing with two-faced people that talk behind your back. If you need friends, at least the dollars are here for you :3
Just don't let school get to you no matter what! It may be hard but school doesn't last forever. Your a kind person and although you do need some attitude to deal with cruel people, you are kind first and never lose that. There aren't enough kind people in the world so try to stay yourself. School can change nice people into mean ones, it's not fair but it happens all the time. However, you do need an attitude so that people don't walk all over you, if someone bothers you then either ignore them or if it's a problem then stand your ground and stay calm no matter what. I hope that helps, please don't let school get to you and suicide is never the answer. Good luck :3 <3

I thank both of you! It's always good and helpful to read such a nice words. I guess you are right Neko. I should just stay calm and care only about myself and those some good friends I have. I think they are judging me just because I am really different than others like most of dollars. But I'm definitely not going to be like them. I'll be myself and I will stand it those 3 more years :)
Thank you again <3

DOnt even think to suicide ,just look around is there anyone who was bullied ? just be friend with them,usually they were a good person and worth to be called "friend" ,dont tell it to teacher , they just make it worst ,If you re lack at power dont even think to start a fight