Hi, iv'e been with dollars for a while, and iv'e finally worked up the courage to put this up,, so please don't sage me.

Anyways, hi, my name is Alfred, I live an average life a mother a father and a brother all crammed into a small picket house in Colorado. I loved them all dearly and I never thought anything could go wrong. That is, until about a year ago.
My brother is the good child. He had strait A's and was athletic ect. I was an average student, kind of athletic and it was obvious that my parents favored him out of the twins. But I tried to never let that fact get me down. But one night, i was feeling extra crappy, my father ripped into me for sleeping in and missing school. He called me lazy worthless fat ect. and when he figured out my twin brother did the same, he merely told my brother not to do it again. I was so hurt by my dad's obvious love towards my brother that I snapped. I screamed at my brother and let years of pent up anger explode. I made him so upset that he ran outside and never came back. We found him a day later in the nearby hospital in a permanent comatose due to a car accident.
Now my parents blame me for him dying and I know it's my fault! I've recently taken up cutting and have grown to depend on it. All I wan't is my parents to love me again. What should I do?

WOW. thats actually really horrible. im so sorry. truely. i only say that to people who i mean it to. first of all, its NOT your fault. you cant prevent what you cant predict. your brother knew you loved him, hes your twin. im sure he understood... i truely believe that!! but i really think you should go to therapy. its important to talk to a professional for things like this. cutting won't help, put down the razor. if you want to make it up to your twin, LIVE ENOUGH FOR THE BOTH OF YOU. never give up, be the best, pure and kind and brave hearted person you can be! for the both of you. that is my advice to you...i wish you well! dont give up. never give up. live for him. keep the light shining.

I agree with >>2 live for him. Make best of what you can do and work hard at life for your brother. It's not your fault. It isn't. That was an accident and beyond your control. Use this experience to drive you towards a brighter future. Your brother's coma may lead to him waking up one day so you'll be able to hopefully one day apologize to him. Don't let your parents get to you, I'm sorry, I know it's hard but see some help and get yourself out of that negative state. I hope that helped in some way, don't lose hope please.

Hello Alfred.
I have not been in your situation so I can't give you any advice from previous experience.
However, like >>2, I believe you shouldn't give up. Live life freely. Regret will only bind you to the ground.
Though you don't know if your brother will forgive you yet, you should become someone who did not waste their life in regret. The accident was no one's fault. It's called an accident for a reason.
Cutting yourself will not help the situation. Find someone to help you with your addiction to cutting yourself. Your brother would not be happy to see you doing this to yourself.
But, there is no point in us telling you anything if you won't accept it.
Forgive yourself.
Live freely.
But never forget you brother.
I understand you love him dearly.
He will definitely feel the same.
Live in the hope of his awakening.
Nothing will come from such a negative state of mind.
Be positive.
Be optimistic.

Well.. like >>4, i haven't been in your situation.. But i agree with all.
Sometimes people said something they don't mean it.
Forgive yourself, live your life, and do your best.
I hope our words helps you (^_^)

Thank you. It really means a lot. I'm sorry to have bothered you and hope that someday I can repay you for your wonderful advice. I think I can finally move on now that I know that my bro still loves me.

you should write poetry about how you feel and just show it to your parents,it'll be easy than just telling them. and think of a the good times you shared with your brother and all the resons you loved him.

you should write poetry about how you feel and just show it to your parents,it'll be easy than just telling them. and think of a the good times you shared with your brother and all the resons you loved him.

you should write poetry about how you feel and just show it to your parents,it'll be easy than just telling them. and think of a the good times you shared with your brother and all the resons you loved him.