My addiction isn't a normal one like drinking, pills, weed or anything like that. But my addiction is something I can't explain very well. I love looking at bloody crime scene images, seeing things dead and watching others in pain. I feel sick and well like I am doing something wrong. I don't want to hurt anyone but I just want to see more. Please someone give me something to help me stop my craze

It's just something in your Mind you shouldn't worry to much I think you need an outlet maybe a sport that let's you hit and hurt other but to an extent where it's not bad like MMA boxing or kick boxing it's not your fault but the fact that you realize this and want help is a step in the right direction, I don't think your in a craze I think it's all in your head. You will get through it I believe in you.

Like the person had said before this. I'm sure you'll figure a way around your addiction. No doubt. But luckily you were smart enough to notice. Some take a while for them to notice they have an addiction when it's too late to try and fix it. Even if it were possible for them it might take a while to fix judging by how severe it has become.

you could take it a step down and watch horror anime instead of the real thing...i tend to favor horror anime and im so sorry if this doesnt help

>>1 Sounds to me kinda like sadism, I also look at gore, it's not an addiction but I do it. I wouldn't hurt anyone though, but if you feel as though you might hurt someone then it's best to see a psychiatrist. Professional help might help you understand your addiction and make peace with it in a healthy manner. I also agree with >>4 horror anime is much better.

I'm not sure if I agree with any of the previous posters.

When watching gory anime commonly, playing violent video games excessively or even looking at pictures of gore repeatedly, all you are doing is desensitising yourself to violence. All these things can be fun in moderation, but you can't make yourself dull to it. Gory violence is a terrible thing, it's best if we all can still know that.

Most people want to see violence and other's pain to some degree, it's a human habit. It's like those people that just love to watch shows about the high-society of various cultures; we all want to see people doing a lot better than us and a lot worse than us.

95% of addictions are there to be beaten. It's up to you, not anybody else, to push past your reliance. Nobody can just give you something to stop your craze, it's up to you. Beating things that you feel a need to do is not easy, that's why people that do earn large amounts of respect. There is no 'if you can't beat 'em, join 'em' in this scenario, if you can't beat them then you'll remain existing in an unhealthy mindset.

I`m sorry...

You all are smart...I don't know I will try the professional help. I know this is something I have to try and stop. I am glad I got some opinions. If anyone else has some ideas for me I would like that.

P.S. I have look at it I need it. If I go a day without looking at something suffer then I act off the next day. I have even cut myself to get the great sight of blood. I'm sick.

Well from personal experience it doesn't really sound like you will hurt another. I was going to be another Columbine kid, but I just didn't break to the enacting state. But yeah just watching gory movies should help. Also there is a big difference between reality and games, and if you can't distinguish the two then I would suggest some help.

Also if you are smart enough you could always go into the medical field, like a surgeon. In order to take power tools to human flesh and bone I think one needs to be a little off in the head, but they are praised for it. Of course the difference is saving a life rather to impairing, or hurting, one.

Nah, your fine. Just be careful. Things like that my start out as innocent curiosity and then turn into desire to create those things. But I would still consider getting psychological help. We can't all be Sherlock Holmes y'know.

It's ok. Don't worry, the fact that you are worried and want to stop means you are not a bad person. something made you this way, and maybe you will have this monster forever. but you need to learn to control it or it will destroy you. you dont want to end up killing someone and going to jail for the rest of your life do you? go see a therapist, its the only way to kill your monster. *puts hand softly on your head and smiles gently* haha dont worry, you're only human.

A Human fighting A Monster I like it

What makes you think that your "addiction"/"craze" is bad? Honestly, I do the same thing (I love Jack the Ripper X3). Of course society looks down upon it, but it's because they cannot accept those who are different. It's honestly just the idea of being near death that excites some people. There's nothing wrong with you. If you believe you need help, then talk to someone you know would understand. ^^

I don't think this 'addiction' you have is bad. To tell the truth, I sought of do the same thing. I love reading about the horrific experiments scientists have done. Stuff like 'The Russian Sleep Experiment' are stuff I find fascinating.

There's nothing wrong with having a fascination with these things. It's normal to be curious about 'unusual' stuff, grotesque or otherwise. But, like all things, too much interest can be a problem.
If you find yourself looking to act upon your interests or you feel that you're becoming too obsessed, I'd go to see a psychiatrist. As long as you can keep your addiction under control, there's no reason to worry.

>>13 Jack the Ripper? He is a badass and I think he had a great way of killing those vile and sickening whores.

>>10 In a way I do create my desire.

>>5 Sadism? I understand where you would get that.

>>16

I think that might be a problem. You have desensitized yourself to the point you think it's okay people died horribly.

We have defined boundaries as a society. Brutal killings are bad, that is an example of the morals we have as a society. To live in a society, you have to accept the rules.

Just thinking about killing people isn't breaking any rules. However, since it leads to violence not making an impact on you, which can lead to violence from you, it is considered bad. Remember, you get food, water, and shelter from the society you live in. That means you have to follow the rules.

Pulling that 'society shuns people who are different' card doesn't work. People who kill other people for fun simply are not acceptable into our society. We have to set limits, that is one of them.

But, again, if you aren't actually causing violence, you are following the rules. As long as you aren't hurting anyone else, directly or indirectly, it doesn't matter. If you can trust yourself to allow yourself to view violence and not let it develop into anything else, then go for it. However, if it does develop into something else, if you start acting violently to satisfy your urge, that is bad.

>>17

See I feel like I'm a bad person. I know that this is a problem for me that I have to try and overcome. Please do understand I'm on the brink of just snapping and cutting open my sisters neck or even cutting open a wound so deep into someone I dont even know. I have tried to reach out and get professional help but they all say its because I have stress and its normal for a woman in school. But no its more then that. I laugh at the sight of dear things, and chuckle when I see someone bleed. It's something I can't seem to compress and throw away. I calmed a little thanks to you all responding. Your opinions on my insanity is really helpful and I'm thankful. I would like to read more of them.

>>18

I meant dead not dear

A tip from an anime called Gantz has a big part of this kind of addiction in one of the first episodes. One of the guys explains how it excited a guy beating the shit out of something else. Enjoyed seeing others suffer and in pain. Truthfully it is everybody that is like that, just some won't admit it. When you turn on the news what are the stories? Most are about violence and despair, because that increases the ratings. More people want to watch the news when it is about some messed up stuff, but not when they report the good. Just referencing that anime again he talks about everyone wants to see a dead body and in truth everybody does. When there is an accident doesn't everybody slow down to look, even if it is on the other side of the road. Everyone wants to see that body mutilated in a car wreck, they just won't admit it. So you are more normal than you think.

>>21 I think you're wrong in the sense that it is not everyone. Some people genuinely just wish others to be well and happy, they just aren't that common.

I can totally relate to you cuz I also have this addiction of gore stuff. What I do is i privately view pictures in the net. Every time I watch CSI and all those crime scene movies with mutilated bodies, I tend to be more pumped up. My point is I think this particular situation of yours is not an addiction but more of a hobby. Mind you, addiction and hobby are two different things. As long as you don't feel like stabbing someone in the chest, I guess everything is fine. :)

>>23
>CSI
>Gore
For fuck's sake.
You're retarded.

But, drop me an email and I'll send you some real gore pics and videos. :))

>>23 >>24

mother of god don't do it mare .-.

>>16
Well, BloodyRose, I can see where you are coming from, but in a lot of ways, the prostitutes didn't have much else to do. Honestly, although its considered a "dirty job" it actually pays enough to get by. Sorry for the kind late reply....

>>24
To each his own. Not everyone can take absolute gore. And actually CSI does pretty well with it, although it's not like Corpse Party~.

[NSFW] true gore / fappable material for those who think they're addicted to blood and gore and yeah.

But I'm not getting into the discussion here.



























I'm just leaving that to see who can be tainted.

>>27 Aww hell naw that's gross.

>>ALL

This is not a hobbie I don't look at gore for the hell of it. I need it! I know that you guys don't understand. It's my life. Blood stained walls, guts shoved down a victims throat. I love it. I need it. Without it I would kill to create it.

Is it me, or do I smell a role playing faggot?

>>27 8/10

>>28 You realize how fucking stupid you sound, yes?

I am stupid. I'm really stupid and I know that. I just feel lost. I don't know why I even tried to get help it isn't working. I think I should just give in to it and stop bugging you guys.

Nope you are not stupid.

Well, I don't really see much of a problem honestly. lots of people have their little thing that they must do everyday or else it just feels off. Yours just happens to be a less common thing. For me its reading manga. and not just one. No I need to read volumes and volumes in a day to the point the next i realise the time its 5 a.m. in the morning and Im supposed to be asleep. Also when I'm on the computer i MUST have a tab with manga in it.

Back to your addiction. If you really think its bad then just limit yourself to I dunno, I recommend... maybe drawing? its what I did. Get a sketchbook, don't care bout whether the art's "presentable", "good", "beautiful". Just draw whatever you like. Someone's intestines pulled out from their guts and used to hang em off a tree, a bloodied stabbed heart, etc, anything. Well, it works for some. Take out the gore addiction on paper. Not even drawing you could write a gore scenario. write your own lil fiction of a serial killer or something. Well... thats all I got.

>>32

Thank you. And yes drawing is a good way to let it out. I also need to tell everyone who has replied that I thank you all. I feel better allowing others to know. And I'm sorry. This may seem fake but its not. I'm tired of this pain and in a way forcing myself back into the light. Please forgive me and I hope I find a useful way to stop this.

I don't think that's an addiction since I love those kinds of things too.I don't know why either, but they just look kinda beautiful. You're not alone buddy~ :)

>>34

But with me i cause it sometimes. You are neet though i havent heard of someone close to me.

BuMp

we're the same, i always ended up thinking about perfect crimes

Well your not psychotic because psychotics don't feel guilt or sick. I suggest talking to a nurse practitioner or Dr physiologist to figure out whats going on with you.

That's sociopaths AnInfoBroker.. people with psychosis often hallucinate and can't differentiate reality from fantasy.

>>39 No dude your thinking schizophrenia

I did something bad guys. I began cutting a little after my last reply. It was lovely, my blood, until I passed out from my last cutting session about a week ago. My sister found me on the floor in the bathroom. She drove me to the hospital. I'm in therapy now. I am getting help. I don't like it.

>>41 Like it or not, help is necessary sometimes.

You should stop doing this because it's really dangerous for your health and Maybe you should consult Psychologist for this.

Actually, I'm scared of Blood >.<

>>41 You should accept the help their trying to give you. It doesn't mean you have to give up. I love looking at bloody and dark things too but I'm not addicted to it. Any addiction is a problem especially when it came to the point you almost killed yourself.
>>42 Like what Neko said help is necessary sometimes.

The therapist is very rude to me and today he kept showing me ink splats. Every time I said I saw blood that was splattered in a page or a neat piece of organ art he got mad. I really don't like him. I have to see him every other day for this week until he says I only have to see him twice a week. I sit here now though and pick at my scabbed up arm. My cuts were deep and well I would post a pic later to show you when I go on my pc.

I kinda understand where you're coming from. In my opinion a good way to I guess express what you're feeling would be to write about it. Not necessarily a novel but maybe short stories, it's something that helped me lol. For some reason with me I always feel the need to violent, not necessarily in a bad way, just violent. One way I was able to get what I wanted was to write short stories and have it play out in my head. Another way was play video games like Dead Space, which is really gory so that might be up your alley, or if you're into it larping. Granted it's not the real thing but it helps keep people protected as they beat the living crap out of each other. Just a thought lol

>>45 Oho your therapist is an unprofessional ass. Ask not to see him and to see someone else. I never got shown ink splats even when I was in an psychiatric hospital lol.

You must try a different therapist for that job, that kind of thing will actually make your problem worse.

Do you really like seeing blood?
Do you see yourself having this addiction removed? or
Do you even want to get this addiction removed?

Help yourself as a part of your "self-treatment" not all medical things can help.

You people are smart. I will probably get a different treatment plan on therapy if I show no improvement by the end of this month. I will be seeing my therapist a lot though and have to talk to him for an hour a day. I guess this guy is a specialist and has been working in his job for 17 years. He is old.

I do wanna to be able to get this addiction to a low enough standard that I can at least I can look at something and not see death. I want to feel sad that someone dies, not happy. I sicken myself.

>>49 Im glad you feel that way hope you get better soon :)

Okay try playing some online games? www.ourworld.com is a fun one. Unplug your tv or try not getting on any sites containing blood. Get Some exercise you may be fit but you can still get your mind off of things while maybe taking jogs or things like that.

>>51 ourworld is fun but well its hard for me not to get frustrated at the others on it. And I do exercise 5 days a week in gym class.

I have been drawing a lot and I'm surprised that its not so gory. The help I'm receiving from all of you and people at home is helping me. I love all of you. I may never fully be able to stop this strange addiction of mine but with your help I can put it to a good use. Please I love your suggestions.

Bump for help

When I was a child. I fantasized about hurting people. Not severely physically. But emotionally. I grew enjoyment from picking on children younger than me, ripping toys from their hands and watching them cry.

I personally believe that I did that either because it's in our DNA as our inherent nature. Or perhaps...my mind wanted to see that pain so I could better analyze my own. Maybe it was even a mix of the two reasons.

Seeing gore is something many, many of us secretly like. Violent video games, "poppin' heads" in online games.

You have a desire not to act on that yourself. Not to do it in the real world. That makes you fine. I promise.

But if you're finding yourself liking more than you want to. Distance yourself from it. Addiction can be fought, and beaten.

Firstly, I think that something like this is involuntary and something that you don't have control over so I don't think anyone has reason to judge you or anything.
I have actually thought about things similar to this. Like when I'm in a car I might hope that there's a car crash, not because I want someone to die or something but rather because it would be interesting to be a part of. I might also hope to witness a suicide or a murder or a robbery or something. The way I see it is that these are coincidences that we are hoping to be a part of but there's not really any thing we can do that's acceptable or morally right that would allow us to do so. Stuff like this happens so what we hope for is not for it to happen more but to happen around us because no one will blame you if you randomly stumble across a dead body but if you're the one that put it there then there would be a problem.
Conclusion (assuming that I understand what you're saying), there's nothing wrong with it because it's a hope for coincidence not an action to harm.

I feel as if your all helping me. And well turns out I really have a problem. I sit here in my room ready to go to the councillor and I sit here looking at an alternative for my gore. I'm reading something my friend suggested CreepyPasta. And so far I haven't had an urge to look at bloody pictures.

Hey that's interesting. A friend of mine reads those and actually does youtube videos reading them. I haven't read many but I did like the one called an egg (it's more of an idea on why we are here rather than gory or scary though).

Perhaps you enjoy horror. Try to write a horror story, or create something along those lines. Or perhaps just get lost in a good horror story!

I love seeing those images as well, but i found something cool. i found bestgore.com to ease my addiction lels :3

>>59 oh my...such lovely death...I love you Hazekaia.

I can't help it death is amazing! I need more blood! I was slowing myself down but now I don't care. Tonight I'm cheating myself and I am going to go through all the gore I can. I hate myself but its just to good. I'm so sorry. I sit here now crying such happily pained tears as i pic at my cutting scab/scars. Just one night shall I splurg on such addiction.

No BloodyRose stay strong. You were trying so hard.

I've badly read the thread, so I dunno if someone already suggested it so, I'll do it anyway. BloodyRose, how old are you by now? I mean, if you're not in a lower age, there is something that maybe could help in all these feelings of yours. I mean that you should be 18+ for because it is sexual, but even tho better than the actual Gore thing. I'm talking about BDSM. I mean, once you're liking feeling the pain and look other suffering, maybe this should be a more "healthy" way out.

>>62 I am 19 actually. And thanks for the idea.

>>62 >>63 Js, researching this shit before you do any of it, and *never* do it with a stranger or someone who you haven't known for a very long period of time. You have to have 100% trust in them, and be sure to have an unusual but easy to remember safe word.

Though tbh, I wouldn't really suggest this.

every herd of the band "twiztid" they have the same problem

>>64 thanks for the concern.

>>65 yes and I didn't know.

>>All I'm so proud of myself but also very scared because my addiction has been forced into a hole so I can get through 2 days as an average human. I was about to cut someone/myself earlier, but stopped myself.

>>66 great job! Keep working hard to get over your addiction!

I'm feeling bad...I urge to cut...

When you have this kind of ideas in your mind,IMMEDIATELY do something else. Give someone a slap, go out and break a plate, or a glass, chew many gums, scream, trow a pillow, do anything comes to your mind: the point is, give yourself something totally different to think about.
"Now i've got to clean up this mess." "I slapped that guy, better if i sorry to him." Ok?

>>69 good idea...

Obsessive compulsive disorder , OCD , an anxiety disorder , maybe. The symptoms are normally repetitive abnormal thoughts in which might cause people whom suffer from OCD to constantly feel the obsession is bad or illogical yet can't help but to logically continue with the obsession due to repetitive and constant flurry of images in the persons mind , try searching on it this is what I learnt of tho.

If you really want to do it,you should control yourself.Think of other things or listen to music.Perhaps telling a trusted friend would work,and you should stop watching it.If it comes from anime or manga,stop it for a while till is ends.

OCD...well that is a possibility.

Bump...and hang in there BloodyRose

BloodyRose, hang in there! Just the fact that you're fighting so hard gives me hope for you. Anyway--not trying to minimize your problem--I think violent urges are quite natural in human beings, since we had to hunt for survival for most of our history. Maybe you could try hunting? It's perfectly natural, and the deer population is too high anyway. You could always give the meat to anyone who needs food. Maybe donate to a food pantry. But, I'm glad that you are trying so hard. Hang in there!

You're not alone. The world isn't as bad as it seems. ;)

Well first calm down.Go tell a teacher and if that wont work.
Go yell at her and say shes not the boss.

>>77 Never tell a teacher something like this unless you want to end up in a psyche ward.

Is it ok if I prick my finger with a needle

Do you draw blood when doing so?

>>79 >>80 Stop talking to yourself, ID:jRezc6O/

Ok shhh BarabiSama I'm not Bloody...but she is my sister...I'm trying to help her as well as everyone else...I'm using the same pc as her...but now I guess she will know its me.

>>82 or so you say.

I must first start by saying, this isn't exactly a normal emotion towards death. Be it that you somewhat liek the thrill of seeing somethign die, or you literally marvel at the pain in death, it would be best to talk to someone with actual experience in the matter.
I for one, do somewhat enjoy death. Teh idea gives me a thrill and leaves me nearly craving it, but begging in your head for more is a little..for lack of a better word...scary.
I do not say go out and kill someone, but find someway to wallow in what you like so much, and see if that helps you put it ont he back burner. If not, then try lookinga t death in another way. Blood and guts and gore can be interesting to look at, but hwen its someone you love and dont want ot lose, it becomes hard to see things the same anymroe.
I hope that i helped you.
God Bless you, and goodluck. <3

I give up...I quit trying...

Look at all the advice given to you above. By saying that >>85 do you want us to worry or give you more advice. After you see all these people comment down both their opinions and their support, should you be to tey your best again. What is your motive for starting this thread then ? What do you want ? Im not here to offend you

I really want help I do. I just feel if I just bug everyone here. The dollars is a family for me but I just feel as if I irritate you all...I love being able to try out all your opinions.

>>62 I agree. Bloody, maybe you should try BDSM. I do it, and it's really fun. It's exciting and helpful when I'm angry. Bondage is a whole different world, and though it's a sexual subject, it's a way of life. I think it's very useful for people who see the world differently. I've always been fascinated with pain. I have a high tolerance for blood, except for when it's my own, and I'm fascinated with human actions, emotions, strengths, preferences, etc. My partner says I'm good at it too. If you have somebody you trust, or if you know of a bondage club, you should try it. See if they have a Dom trainer or something. Go watch a scene or something.

Hope I helped, good luck.

Once again.

I'm still not sure how many of you guys haven't realized that this is the equivalent of a roleplay post and that the op is not only bullshitting but replying to herself to continue the thread.

I'm not talking to myself. I may be fucking stupid but I ain't that stupid seriously. i can give you fucking proof on or befor the 5th. BarbiSama you really don't know what its like in my head.

in others eyes , you look like you are either roleplaying or looking for truckloads of attention. Eventhough , you Might not be doing that. Try not to relay to much onto the internet

I'm a bit tired of this, so I'm going to be blunt. Remember to take what I say with a grain of salt. I don't know you offline, so everything I'm saying is based on what you've said here and how you act here and claim you act offline. If you have a legitimate problem and think what I'm saying is bullshit, then get off the internet and go get help instead of asking people online about your mental health and bragging to them about how much of an anime character you are.

>>91 Bullshit. Everyone uses that excuse. You have the same writing and name styles. I may have been born at night, but it certainly wasn't last night. Are there circumstances where siblings use the BBS and share an ID? Of course. Is this one of them? No, no it's not.

I don't want your "proof". I don't know you in real life, so that means nothing to me.

As far as your head goes, you're either bullshitting or misunderstanding. People who have a legitimate problem don't talk like this. Because you like to watch gory anime and are desensitized to blood, you think you have an addiction to watching things that have gore in them? You think you're addicted to getting and giving pain? No, no you're not. You're just seeking attention.

If you're legitimately going to see a therapist, then you need to start taking it seriously. I know that you *want* to be diagnosed with a condition, which is why you're saying everything is blood and are injuring yourself. I know that it sounds cool and is glorified. But your parents are spending their fucking money on it and you're being a selfish little prick by acting like this. At least put a little bit of effort into getting better.

We all want attention. *I know.* But come up with a better way to get it. Go do well in school. Go write something. Go draw pretty pictures. Join a club. Watch something fun. Just *stop*.

You're real-life roleplaying to shove yourself into this character that you want to be where you hurt and injure yourself and are addicted to blood and gore. You are not an anime character. All you're doing is fucking with the heads of everyone offline who cares about you and bragging to the internet about your supposed "problems".

The problem you have has nothing to do with gore - it has to do with the fact that you're crying for attention and think this is the only way to get it. It's the easiest way to get it, but how about you put some effort into it? Go do something with your life instead of sitting around whining about how you're obsessed with sadomasochism.

Fine BarbiSama ill stop. Every who has replied I shall take this advice to heart. I won't drag this on angle longer. It's just stupid. I'm a depressed teen with no real friends and have nothing better to do. I do cut and shit and yes I love it. But I shouldn't be bugging you guys on here about it. I'm just worthless. I try to hard. And I'm sorry okay. I don't want anyone to have to deal with me. I will quit. Forgive me please. And just so you know I can hate myself as much as you do. And I will apologize a thousand times. But I aleast try to express my feellings. So please everyone you can reply but I will not. I won't irritate you dollars.

>>94 Have you even read what Barabi said?

You know you have a problem? Do you feel depressed? Do you feel worthless?
Go outside and work on it!
Having a good life takes energies and efforts but it's damn worth it! Stop complaining on a screen, no one wants to hear sorry words from you: we will be extremely happy when you'll come back here with a new thread saying that you are now not depressed, that you have found people that understand you and that you have stopped cutting for fun because life is so beautiful if you actually keep on trying and trying and trying 'cause eventually you'll achieve what you desire and you'll say to yourself "I made all of this, I was able to do all of this and I'm happy.".

We all know you can work on your happiness, if you only stop to say to yourself "I'm useless" and you start to say "I'm human as everyone else and I'm powerful."

>>95 is right, heck I have been depressed I was actually diagnosed with depression. And I went to my school and college counselor instead of seeking attention on the internet. If you want help post what you really need help with, not just some fantasy you made up it just looks pathetic and I can tell you can rise above seeming pathetic. I can tell by your post you are probably quite young please speak to someone offline that can help you and be honest with them and us.