so i have saw many of your problems and i might have replied to it,what hits me is that we are supposed to make the world better place,what starts first is us.we cannot make the world a better place by having negative thoughts like sucide,cutting yourself or other intentions that make things even worse.we only have one life and it is given to us to make a good use out of it,do the right thing and have the right thought to move dollars forward and be happy!because you are never alone!