So heyy... I just wanted to take some off some burden in my shoulders by writing..

and to start off.. I'm having a really bad life right now..
My ex-friends doesn't accept who I am(yes. I know that I may be the worst person ever. but I didn't do anything reeeaaallly bad to them), My parents cheat on each other..(My mom doesn't know that I know she has a lover but I think my dad knows because my mom always makes me talk to dad to stop him cheating. But he's working overseas), My mom always pretends that I am her when talking to his lover (she uses my phone and texts him), I don't know if dad really has a lover,too (Well, the first one I think is true.. but the second one? I dunno), My mom also uses my facebook acc and pretends that I am her. she also opens my dad's acc. she uses the chance that my dad doesn't use it. what does she post? well, for example she uses my acc then post things like "I love you mom, dad. Someday, I'll make you proud.", some 'corny' quotes, and worst, she'll say that "I'm a little princess" Ugh.. and then she uses her or my dad's acc to comment..
that's some of it..
But I don't have the guts to be brave and say all of my opinions.. Sometimes I may be rude, but I'm not the only one. I may be ugly, but It doesn't mean I'm the most rude person ever. My schoolmates thinks that when someone is pretty, he/she is nice. but in reality? nuh-uh.
When I'm alone and left with my thoughts, I'm pretty much emotional and a cry-baby. It's my only way to let go of the bad feelings that I'm feeling.
Now, I have 'trust' problems. I don't adress those persons whom I am close with as my friends. Even those who still became close to me until now. I have no friends anymore. It's not like I don't need them. It's just that I have to learn to live w/o them. i somehow realize that at first, they will be friends w/ you. But when you really became comfortable with them.. they will leave you hanging there...

Hate me with all your might. i dunno what to do with my life that's all. So I'm settled with writing this.

Greetings, quite complicated thread. Having such thoughts doesn't make you a bad person. When smn is left alone, he/she starts observing the motives and the actions of others. From personal experience i have to agree with the 'when you really become comfortable with them they will leave you hanging there. But that doesn't mean that everyone is like that. I lost touch with my best friend 3 years ago. During that time i trief to hang out with many different people, not bc i wantedit though, and some of them indeed leave you hanging there. I have no friends at the moment but not bc i am a loner, but bc i havent found a worthy friend.

I also have someone who is always with me. but I don't have someone who I can have someone to open up my feelings. All I wanted was someone who will be there for me even though I may be the worst person ever. Is that too much to ask for?