If anything I wish I was deaf. I'm tired of getting all this bullshit. They want me to be like my brother and sister,to grow up and be smart. I have no problem with that it's just they made me grow up at a age too young so I choose to be childish now, now I get all kinds of bullshit that I'm "fat","stupid","lazy". If they can just see things from my side then they'd see the crap they put me through. When I'm insulted I might cry or smile to hide the tears, thinking about things like this makes me realize I never thought it would hurt so much. I've locked away years and years worth of painful experiences that I've been through, and now I think I'm at my limit. I can't take anymore, anymore and I'll just might realize something I may have done a long time ago.

Well, try talking to them, talk to your sibs about how your feeling, but don't keep it bottled up, and i see it's stressful, having high expectations, but your parents only set high expectations because they love you and they want you to be happy, but if your not happy, they need to know. And don't let the insults they throw at you bother you, you define who you are through your own mind and actions, based off of what you want to make yourself happy. Words of insult from other people don't define who you are in any way, shape, or form. You are you, and if others don't wish to accept you for who you are, they don't have to hang around you. My point is, be proud of yourself, yes it's ok to push a little, and have a goal to achieve, but at the same time, your parents should understand there is a limit. So tell them that your at your limit, and they need to stop.

I agree whole-heartedly with Doug. Talking a situation out is always the best solution. What's important as well though, is that you meet the expectations that YOU set for yourself. I tried for years to meet everyone's expectations of me, but the hard truth is that you can't. My dad has this thing he always says, "You can make some of the people happy all the time, or you can make all the people happy some of the time, but you can't make everyone happy all the time." Make sure that YOU are happy with yourself, then all the other things will, with a little faith, fall into place.