Dear world,

Ok a while ago I made a plan to leave my home in Ohio and leave all my chaos behind me. I also remembered my plot to achieve my own form of immortality. My plan is a big long experiment that could work or could fail. In order to become immortal I needed to make my life meaningful beyond what could be. I needed to live like well the best example is The World's most interesting man. If my life is full of strong memories, the kind of memories that hold a deep meaning that only I could comprehend I might have a shot at remembering who I am even in a different life time. It's a crazy idea I know that and that is exactly why it was worth all the effort.
My name is in fact based off Axel from the video game series Kingdom Hearts. The last name is my own idea, it's a brilliant name to live by since its such a rare combo. I have seen my life pan out in a way similar to the game, in an parallel universe type of thing. I even was born with green eyes. The similarities are there but the point here is how I see the world. Everything I ever do has two meanings. One anyone can understand, the other is the spiritual philosophical idea. When I tell people I don't believe I have a heart even when science can show me I'm wrong, I still say "if I had a heart, I'd be truly happy." My heart is either the idea of happiness or is a physical object just laying somewhere. I've met alot of people who also believed themselves to be a alternate version of a fictional character. They fully believed this idea and would not accept any evidence against this idea, it's how I met a man who believed he was Roxas and that him and I were destined to be together. I loved him and still do even after his murder at the hands of a drunk driver. I once vowed to Roxas that I would search for him in every life time I had.
Using my history and all the memories I have in this life, I intend on telling the world of my story. In the memories of others I can live forever. I have told my story to many people but always withheld certain points that had to be kept secret for my plan. I believe that Kingdom Hearts is a real thing, a dimensional plane where all knowledge resides. Every idea, every though. The energy of life and mind is Kingdom Hearts and since humans spend every second learning that means that upon death, our knowledge is sent into the collective energy of Kingdom Hearts. I believe upon death in exchange for our knowledge, kingdom hearts will gift is with the ability to retain certain skills or memories from the previous life span. A person who has never touched a guitar in this life time might have done so in the past. It makes them say "I was a guitarist in a past life". My intention is to prove all of this as factual science. I will live a strong life, then offer my engeries and knowledge to Kingdom Hearts in exchange for a chance to trigger all my memories again. The only way to do this at all is I have die first on a specific day so that my story will become a legend that will not be forgotten. I have planned to leave my instructions for my plan on me when I die. So that someone will preserve my mission and leave clues so that one day my new self will remember it all. I will leave behind questions that only I can ever answer. This is going to be the single most important moment of Human history but only if just one person accepts the responsibility of preserving my past. I have made my name appear over the Internet as many times as I can. I have spread my story far and wide. But now It's time that chapter one ends. On the 8th day of May in the year 2013. Axel Faraday will die in order to prove that humanity will prosper forever and to keep his promise to his lost love. I will see you all in the next life.

Okay this may sound stupid. But I thought I should share my views. Axel, I think you have more to offer this world. You could become older and create cures for cancer or something amazing like that. I don't think you should die and (I'm assuming) I don't think Roxas would want you to die either. I think you should live out your life completely till you're 90 or 100. Axel, I want to stop you from killing yourself because yea, I'm new here and I've hardly met you but, all you messages on the boards are funny and nice. And I appreciate your trolling. I'm not lying. And I would miss you because your messages brighten up my day. I don't want to burden you, but just convince you that you have people here on earth and the dollars that want you around. If I think of more, I'll write it. Hope to hear from you.

I'm not doing this out of sadness. I'm doing this because I vowed I would meet him in the next life.

Axel.. I know you said a specific date but.. you're not making much sense. In order for you to find your past life in the next life, your life right now has to be something big, something that you can actually find no matter when or where you are reborn. If you leave already, how are you to find those clues if you are reborn in China? You won't even understand the language which the questions are asked in!

Or even better yet. What makes you so sure KH is real? What if this life isn't even the first one. This may even be you 7th or 1000th.

Google Axel Faraday, the results will always show me. And the question is pretty simple enough. "Where did it begin?" Only My Roxas and I would ever know. All the memories have links. And Kingom Hearts just might become part of the Disney family some day, that alone could help. I have planned for contingencies on many different ways.

Sigh... But what Ritsucka said, Roxas wouldnt want this. Meet him in the next life dammit, but when the time comes!!
Worse of all, what if your contingency don't mean a damn because of a nuclear war or a natural catastrophe. You don't believe in a God or afterlife, so what happens if an asteroid does actually hit the earth, causing extinction...
Is there absolutely no way to convince you this is a really bad idea.

And listen, you're super vague on how this death of yours will be remembered or even how you're going to do it. I don't see why anyone would google Axel Faraday unless he did something historically good or historically evil. You're not taking anyone "with you", right? This is just you; your death and yours alone?

>>3 I know you're not doing this out of sadness, sorry if it came across as that. I just wish that you would wait until you naturally died to meet Roxas instead of killing yourself. Please don't kill yourself, too many people here care for you. What can I do to convince you to not do this? How can I save you? Please email me at sidpurple08@yahoo.com or if you want to talk to someone call 1-800-273-8255. Or try to go to Sheppard Pratt. Please contact me.

Roxas always hoped it would end with us together. I'm not someone famous but the sad truth is people become more noticed after death. I'm the only one that is going. My contingencies are the people I've sent a copy of my journals. Journals of all my time with Roxas and my greatest moments, and in them are instructions on how to make my name known by more people. My story is going to be passed around, my online accounts monitored for activity, I've changed passwords so I could enter them again. I'm spreading my name all over where ever I can. I feel like it will be like dreaming, that sensation you get when you fall asleep and a second passes and you open your eyes awake. The moment I die I think I'll open my eyes in a new life form. Humans will always find a way to stay alive. One day we will truly live in a future like Mass Effect (excluding the Reapers)
I have made up my mind, I'm going to do this because he wants me to be with him again. And if heaven is real, I'll gladly shake God's hand and ask him to lead me to Roxas. I just have to fulfill my vow to my love. I will live with him and die with him and then find him again. I love that you want to save me, but that would violate my vow to him. I don't lie to him. I'll explain soon my plan so everyone can at least know I have a plan.

True true...

Thought this all out, didn't ya?

Well.. It's your last days on earth. Shouldn't you be.. I don't know, OFF the computer? DOING something?
And who who bloody knows? Ya might find something you like.
Something you really like. Something like a concert or a movie release or finishing Skyrim, that'll make you push the date back a little.

And who knows? Maybe Roxas has already been reborn. Unfortunately, you'll have to wait a decade or more until he's legal, but in that amount of time, you could use to search for him. AND THEN YOU DON'T HAVE TO DIE. ISN'T THAT GREAT??

I'm prayin for you boy... Something will stop you on the 8th. Whether it'll be an angel, or Roxas' ghost, or your parents. Dammit, THINK ABOUT THEM.

>>9 Do it, faggot.
I'm waiting.

>>10 Maggie, this kid has told us all that he is going to an hero at least two times before this.
I'll bet you 100000000000 crunch berries he doesn't go through with it.

You know why he won't do it kids?
Is it because he's a coward? Not exactly.
A liar? Kind of.
An attention seeking teenager? Bing-o-ringo!

/sagebecausefuckyouandyourgaythread

>>11 Oh he's made this before? I'm still a bit scared...

>>11 I can't hear you. I really think this would be fun if you went with me but who really has the time for you? In response to your assertions that people who upset are gay. Good job noticing. The more you focus on knowing who is the gay the more you seem in the closet.

To everyone else, I have loved meeting you, it's been a good time I hope to see you again

>>14 Umm... Since is the last time I'll ever know you, mind if you tell me your name?

Why'd you delete it Cameron Kit?

>>13 In the closet?
huehuehue oh boy.

Stop being a whiney faggot and maybe people will like you.