To those that remember my earlier threads... well I'm still alive, it's been a while. A few things to keep up with my life:
-I finally had the guts to ask the girl out. She said yes after a few days. I mean, I didn't keep asking her or anything. I just asked and waited without pestering her. She said "sure" right away but I felt like she didn't know what she was doing, I was right. After two days she gave me a firm answer, yes. I still feel like she doesn't want me though. More like, I am not worthy of her. I admit I am not the lightest spirit around but I don't go around doing anything to show my anger and depression; well except here, where I ask for help. She keeps thinking I hate her or that I'm upset at her for some reason. I honestly don't know what lead up to those thoughts. If you are a girl, could you possibly tell me what little thing I might have done? Something a guy like me might have missed? She also keeps texting me "I'm sorry" which kind of freezes me up.
-Mother is... better? She still has the disease, it won't ever go away. She tries to hide the pain of it but I know it's there. I do what I can to help her out.
-Father, well, he's the same. Drinking. Leaving for days. I seriously don't know what to do. I told my coach about it, but it seems like he wants to stay out of it. He's my coach as well as my health teacher. So much for seeking help from an adult, huh?
-Self mutilating. I hate talking about this, it makes it seem like I only want attention... I know it's wrong. And I wish I could go into full detail with what's going on with me. I stopped, for a while. My scars were healing and the burns, well, they were healing also I guess? Well the point is I crashed. But I was desperate, I only needed the sight of my blood again so I made it gush out my arm with a deep slice. I would attach a picture but that wouldn't be appropriate really. I relapsed basically. I'm disappointed at myself but I know I shouldn't just say "I could never get out of this" because I know I can keep going. A relapse is normal, right? I also tried drinking poison but that plan failed when I started throwing up and blamed it on the high fever I got from it. And well, that's basically it.
Any advice? Anything at all? I would really appreciate it. Thanks anyway for at least reading this.

Congratulations on asking the girl out! And if she really didn't want to go out with you as you suspect, she would of said "no." And if you want her to stop thinking you hate her, just flat out tell her you don't hate her and that you're not upset at her. It'll clear it up.

As for everything else, idk what to say :/ The normal thing to say would be "don't cut yourself" and "don't kill yourself" but I'm sure you hear that a lot already. It's normal to have relapses; I'm no longer in depression and I still have days where I have to cry or punch someone.

I am glad you know you can keep going. That's a good thing, and it's true. I wish you luck :)

Thank you for the advice.
I do tell her, I tell her I'm not upset nor do I hate her. But she won't believe me. I don't know what to do. I think I really only add on to her own troubles.
And yes, I hear those few lines from the few people that know. And well, I try. I do. I think I just need some more time.

Well, then, the only other thing I can think of is to act as happy, funny, and nice as you can around her so she'll stop worrying.