I want to commit a suicide. Its not because stg sad happened, got dumped nor got bullied.

Its just...
My life is empty. Nothing more. Im just like a vase without flowers, a shoe without laces, asentencewithoutspaces.

I am livin but dead. I hardly feel pain and never cry but I smile a lot. I smile and make jokes and make everyone laugh but in the end I became another person. Even though I smile a lot, I am sad. I really am sad. I have a lot of friends but a few of them hate me.

Last year I went out with a guy. Lets call him 'x'. X really liked me and I didnt. He was just a friend to talk with when I was bored. But he came to like me. He said that he liked me and I asked him out. Why? Because rejection HURTS. I didnt want him to get hurt. I felt like I must say yes. I hate seeing people cry. I never cry.

6 months later I wanted to break up with him and he said ok. We broke up. No one was hurt. But he called me a bitch and never let me talk to him again.

I loved a guy for 3 years. He was shy nice kind and gentle person. He didnt have any friends. I said I liked him and the guys started to talk to him since I was hated by guys, their attention was on him. If he said yes the guys would probably have killed him. Thats right he rejected me. He was so kind that he would cry if he saw me crying. He was worrying about me. But when he said no to me, just for him, even though it hurt and broke my heart like a piece of glass, I treated him like shit.

After that he started to hate me and bully me with his friends. Yeah, with his friends. He found friends because of my plan. X was his friend too. Whatever, he was happy in the end and didnt cry. I hate people who cry for me. I want them to smile for themselves.

My friends are having bad times with each other. Since they were both best friends and they were both my BFF I wanted them to make up with each other. I made a plan and it worked. They made up but it costed our relationship and they left me behind and bullied me too.

Im just an empty vase now...
Help me

I have also thought about committing suicide. I thought about it for a long time. It's pointless. What ever you're running away from will just follow you and torture you to no end. So find better friends. Forget what x said about you. I'm sure you're a nice person

Yes, it's sad, but it's not a reason for suicide. Use the internet to learn how to fix your flaws, then fix them. Happiness is a skill, not an question. learn to not care so much what other people think. This will take time and effort.

I have spent at least a year working on my own personal flaws. Do I still catch myself hiding frowns? yes. I used the internet and a little bit of reading material to figure out what to work on and how. Happiness is a skill that you must cultivate yourself.

To be nice, here are some search terms that seem relevant:
"approval seeking" "self-image" "how to be happy"

A piece of advice that will be very important: talk back to your self-hating thoughts. If your mind calls you worthless, point out that your mind is just being a hater and lying to you. The real problems are all in your head.

Was that helpful?

Your flaws make who you are. If you get rid of them you're losing yourself. >>3

>>4 I disagree. I have found separation between personal flaws and personal idiosyncrasies. Also, most flaws between people are similar anyways. If you get rid of them you just become stronger. In fact, I have been working on mine and I feel like I stand out more, not less.

Sorry guys but that wasnt helpful. Reading >>2 helped me feel special. Im so happy that people care for me even though we didnt meet. Tnaks a lot.

I hope that people will come to like me and I will be really happy. But >>3 , I cant change who am I. I am me and I cant be a different person. I only want people around me to be happy.

Only advice that I can really give you is that keep on living because there is someone who likes you as you. Also be the person that makes you happy because life is much easier and more enjoyable if you can live with yourself.

I don't know you but I have a friends that is thinking about suicide too. The only thing I can say is that there is more people than you think for who you are important. Maybe you never talked to them, maybe they're strangers to you, but it is just impossible for an human being not being liked by someone. I think that you should live to find these people and make other relatives. You really are a caring person, from what I read, and I think you deserve your happiness. Honestly, I don't think you are gonna find it in the death. And I don't think people around you would be happy if you disappeared. I'm not shure if I am well expressing myself (english isn't my first language), so sorry if what I'm saying isn't clear. But I think you should live. Please.

I have attempted suicide in the past (bullying reasons) but I know that there are many other people out there. You are a nice person who just seems to have had a little bit of bad luck. Suicide is a permanent solution to a short-term problem. Please don't try it. We love you

Best advice I can give you- forget about them and find better friends who love you for who you are.

Don't think about suicide. It's never the right answer. Things change as time passes, and the same holds true for people; that's what the world is all about. In the end, the people who strive to survive through the harshest conditions are the ones who get remembered.

I know how it feels to get back-stabbed and abandoned by someone I thought was a friend. And I know how it feels to be so empty that you don't know what it is you're living for(seriously screwed up a year of college, that). But eventually, you will find the solution. You just have to tough it out until then.

Do it for the ones you love and the ones who love you. And remember: 'The world isn't as terrible as you think.' :)

I don't know u but I think you are a good girl from what you said. So please don't suicide cuz the people who love u ( ur family etc.) will get hurt.Bullying is suck but do you think over that why some so-called friends bully you？Find the answer and them solve the problem. Maybe you had some flaws before. So try to get rid of these flaws. I do agree >>3. Getting rid of the flaw doesn't mean to be other people but mean be a better YOU. Some people feel sad about their life but they don't change themselves (I means the flaws) so they are frustrated.Maybe you need a change.

The percent of your friends who hate you is probably very low. It is easy to falsely interpret various responses as hate. I sometimes wonder if a certainf friend hates me. The answer is that she is just insanely burned out from classes and always scowls like that. X_X Also, don't forget that you have at least 27888 friends, so you may need to adjust your math. :)

Oops, typo, 272888

>>1
the world isn't bad.
-dollars
Cheer up, the reason why you exist is because god wants everyone to be awake. To be who we are. Even if we are useless, we can still achieve happiness without fail. You should look around yourself more and find more about the world. There are also many people who does not know you like me, and worry another. I have had many experiences of locking myself in my room, thinking of ways to commit suicide, but I decided to take the path that will make my life feel full. It may take a lot to do it, but there is so much time.

girl,don't kill your self,suicide isn't the answer of your question.don't give anyone a chance to let you down, i've been suicidal too, one thing i know that nothing last forever, it will get better.

Im someone whos thought about suicide a few time in my life, when I was younger (about 5-6) it was pretty bad but then I found a hobby or at least a goal to live for. Mine was to be a chef because I like to see people happy when they eat food I make. To be honest Im not really someone who is very interested in love because its too hard, too complex, anyway my advice is to find a goal you want to work towards and stick close to your friends, who cares if other people dont like you, you cant please everyone but at least you can please yourself. As long as your happy nothing else matters. End of Story :)

Don’t. Take it from me, an empty life is better than one filled with pain and hate. An empty life is better than a death filled with anguish and regret. The world will get better.
I have no real way to prove this to you but you must believe me. The world changes and people go on. You’ll find something worth living for. Don’t give up yet.

dont kill yourself over a breakup that you caused. you went out with him because you where sad, and you broke up because you where sad. all you are doing is hurting yourself and complaneing about it. like akid that pokes himself in the eye, and gets upset. you have nothing to kill yourself over. take this seriausely. if you where realy going to kill yourself, you would have done it, instead of wineing about it on the internet.

There is no reason to believe life will get better, honestly it most likely wont over all, but thats all the more reason to live and appreciate those fleeting moments of happiness. The more pain and loneliness you feel the more you understand happiness and companionship. You dont have to take anyones advice nor do you have to live, its ultimately your call but remember happiness does exist in small amounts and are precious gems of the human condition. Find a hobby, find some ambition, meditate if need be(depression is a good way to understand yourself through meditation and self reflection).

if you REALY want help, get it profesionaly. if you dont, whatever happens is your own fault, not your EXes. you are lucky to have the oppertunity to save yourself. use it.

Whats a king without his pawns even the least important piece in chess can block others from reaching the king

LIFE SUCKS! REALITY SUCKS!!

But that's not a reason to throw your life away.

surely you'll meet someone nicer than them. just stop thinking about suicide and start thinking about the future.

I agree for a long time I wasn't able to feel much and I now can feel happiness but I can't fall in love. But I don't think you should die because that is scary and also there are people who will get hurt when you die. And that hurta a lot more than getting dumped.
If my best friend died I would prop bubbly never speak again.

please, don't do it. people love you. for 2 years i had no friends and most of the people at my school thought something was wrong with me but it got better. things always get better!! you might want to get help, many people are just like you . just remember that there is ALWAYS another way!

please dont suicide . ima also cornered but i trie my best keep my anger and dont give fauck to thsoe idiots tha hurt and pierce your heart. live on and dont giveup your life. the world is not bat as you think.

I'll start out by saying this, I'm 17. Now I've lived the worst for myself, Suffering in Physical, mental, verbal abuse. Not one day went by without me crying to my sleep, this continued for 15 years and I even tried committing suicide 3 times a wekk because of the loss of sanity. It all changed when I was in one school before moving to PA. They made me happy and I realized that I have to embrace the path I was given. After I moved, I met some amazing people, my school treated me with respect and to this day, I will always smile because I made it through, What I'm trying to say to you and to all who has lived in hell. Never give up because things will change and it will embrace you with rewards of your strength. We all have been through it. I would explain how I surpassed the hate and how I even used the depression to an advantage but that's for another time. For now, keep strong.

I'm kinda feeling the same way. My advice is to ask yourself if your life is worth living. If yes is the answer you come to then work to make it better. If no is the answer well...you know. There's no wrong answer for this one. Personally I'm done with it all.

If I may. My life is nowhere that bad. I found my reason for living. But the point being, for a long time I was lost and felt much the same as you. Idk when this feeling started nor do I know if I can fix it. But I am a firm believer that suicide is never the answer. Suicide is giving up on finding your purpose in life. I do care if you kill yourself, I've been that low and I feel for you. I wish I could save you. You have to live because one day, you will find your purpose, so don't give up. I believe that you will find it out there.

I think you have the same thing I do. You have this need to make other people happy, even if that drags you through hell. I have that drive to this day. I care deeply for your empty feelings, your empty life. You will find meaning in it. I promise.

the porpusse of your life
the main and the most important porpuse is to woship allah (the only good)
when ever i feel empty or down i read quraan and talk to allah in my pray
and it is like every epmty feeling in you is gone
you got also help people help weak and one in need

every time you help the people god (allah ) will bliss you
read about islam in reliable sources and i promise you you will find the answer
you will be anew and diffrint person

sorry i mean *worship

Thanks alot... Everyone!

THANK YOU SO MUCH DOLLARS!

It's so great to know that people care for me even though we didnt meet!

>>28 You are the reason why I'm so happy. I found a reason to live :)

>>16 My goal is to become a film director, to see people enjoying my films and thinking style. Thanks...

>>29 I'm muslim too so...

>>EVERYONE;

THANKS A LOT FOR MAKING ME FIND A REASON.


Really guys your comments made me cry! I realised that how stupid the idea of killing myself was! I want people happy, I cant kill a single person. If I die people will be sad and I'll be their regret.

x huh? Its been a long time since I have talked to him. I dont care about him anymore, he is not worth my LIFE. About my BFFs, I told them what happened and we got back togther..

>>17 you were right; my world changed and became a liveable place...

Thanks, Dollars...

The world wasnt as cruel as I took it to be...

>>31 Glad you're still with us! :)

even if you kicked ass u should not do smth such suicide. just stupids and idiots do smth like this so live though this world is rush

I don't want anyone to leave! We hold together!

Always through the worst we'll pull each other out of the depths of hell and journey down our paths of enlightenment together, arm in arm. I too, am glad that the dollars can help you. No matter what there is always someone who cares about you. And you have every reason to be proud of who you are. So long as you remember this, nothing can best you and you can make it down the road through life :) and with our help, and the help of others in your life, your never alone. Again, thank you for not ending your life, there's so much you would've missed. Now go out there and write your story:)

The world isn't as bad as you think... Don't forget that. I'm happy, you already abandon the idea of suicide. killing yourself is pointless. If the vase is empty put some flower in it! Everything is in your hands.

"In 900 years of time and space I've never met anyone who wasn't important before" - The Doctor
Your life is important. You are important. Don't think about killing an important person again. :)

The only way to escape the mundane, is to keep evolving."
~Orihara Izaya

So never give up, committing suicide is the same as giving up or running away. Just keep evolving, and everything will change.

I myself had thoughts like you, but it's weird to say Durarara, XXXHOLiC, and Pandora Hearts saved my life. I'm happy for what life has to offer. I'm not saying keep watching anime and never go outside, but there's always something for everyone that keeps us sane. Just think about it.

WE DOLLARS DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU LITTLE PITY PARTY! IF YOU CHOOSE TO KILL YOURSELF AND GO TO HELL THEN BY ALL MEANS GO AHEAD AND DO SO! BECAUSE WE DON'T CARE ABOUT A LOSER LIKE YOU!

WE DOLLARS DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU LITTLE PITY PARTY! IF YOU CHOOSE TO KILL YOURSELF AND GO TO HELL THEN BY ALL MEANS GO AHEAD AND DO SO! BECAUSE WE DON'T CARE ABOUT A LOSER LIKE YOU!

WE DOLLARS DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU LITTLE PITY PARTY! IF YOU CHOOSE TO KILL YOURSELF AND GO TO HELL THEN BY ALL MEANS GO AHEAD AND DO SO! BECAUSE WE DON'T CARE ABOUT A LOSER LIKE YOU!

That's super rude. WTF! If you think negatively of this person, just don't reply anything!

>>41 Please don't reply to the trolls.

Ignore GHF wherever you see him.

>>41IF YOU CHOOSE TO KILL YOURSELF YOU WILL GO TO HELL! THOW SHALL NOT KILL! THAT DOUSEN'T JUST MEAN DON'T KILL OTHERS IT ALSO MEANS THAT YOU CAN'T KILL YOURSELF! WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO SAY TO GOD ONCE YOUR DEAD ARE YOU GOING TO SAY "LORD MY LIFE WAS TOO HEARD AND I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANY MORE" HE WILL NOT FORGIVE YOU IF YOU KILL YOURSELF! HE'S THE ONE WHO GAVE YOU LIFE!

*resists urge to go off on troll*

Anyway, glad you're still around! Need any more help, we are always around for you! The way you said how you feel like an empty vase describes my life too, but I know there are people out there (whether online, friends, or family) who would hate to see me go. I have goals I want to accomplish, so that's my only purpose at the moment. Yes, the world isn't that great, but you can find great people :)

>>44 what? I just see a post deleted by user.*
(I'm getting better at not feeding them. I did enjoy fighting them though.)

Dumbass troll.

We've all been there, I've been their and honestly I don't trust people around me because of it. Friends have stabbed me in the back too many times to count, my family life wasn't perfect and I thought about suicide countless times. But I'll tell you who saved me, I didn't have Internet or the kind people of the Dollars community to help me back then; but one day a cat attacked my leg (playfully,) and years have gone by since we've met but she is the only person in the world who I will ever call my best friend and every time I look at her, I think "You saved my life and I'm eternally grateful." Later I met someone (a new friend I made,) that showed me anime; anime helped thaw my still frozen view of this world by showing me how to fight for what you believe in. You'll find your path, don't worry, there are many ways to do it but I'm sure you'll find it. :3

>>46 IM NOT THE DUMBASS HERE! YOU FAG LOVERS ARE THE REAL DUMBASSES!

Why are there so many deleted posts :O

Really thanks a lot everyone! ^^ -other than dumbass-

>>45 >>46 >>49 Just mentioning it is feeding it.

Goddamnit, guys. You're just opening your arms wide and welcoming it into the thread. IGNORE, DO NOT REPLY, DO NOT MENTION.

Don't mention it Arya. I hop this helped!

>>49 i see what your doing you bitch don't make it worse!

Arya, I think you should focus more on your own life and happiness, and not just other people. I think it's wonderful that you look after other people, but don't forget your own life. It's like working too much on the small parts of the big picture, you really forget what the big picture is. Try starting something new, like a new sport or hobby, something that could change your routine.

And you think killing you is the answer? you say your life is empty, but i'll tell you the death is even more empty, there nothing after the death, just keep living, i'm sure you will experience some good things in the future :)

>>53 this really will help most if not everyone here. Would you kindly please go to YouTube, in the search bar type "this is water commencement speech" it's really a helpful video.

that is sad to hear i understand your pain i went through almost the same thing just keep your head up and remember there are people in the world who care for you and if you ever feel the need to cry you should don't hide in your feelings ,just know that if you ever feel like ending your life ,DON'T ,live life and be happy that is all i can give you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2Q5cIq08bA
10 reasons to live.