I sometimes wish I was born like every other normal kid :T I'm 11, yes. But I can't get along with other kids my age...It's mostly the older ones I'm raised with. Not to mention American kids can be bitches (Pardon my Swear), which means most kids are not offended by other's comments. But me? I get called a weirdo and I feel like crap. Call me sensitive, but it's true. Concerning the matter I don't get along well with others, I'm also not very... Well, let's just say I don't obsess over childish things. Well, unless you count anime, manga, yaoi, yuri and books as 'childish' xD. Anywho, back to the point. I just like to do more adult things. I'm pretty much a loner, you can say. I like to stay alone in my room and do... well.. Nothing, pretty much. Thing is, I'm tired of pretending to be some cheerful person. I'm really lonely. Some say I have depression, some say I'm just a bipolar prick. And yes, I can be mean. But only because I'm honest. I'm not intentionally mean... At least, I don't think I am. I guess I'm rude... But what happened to Freedom of Speech? I can't express my honest opinion openly to others? Guess not... Well, whatever. I'm a Misanthropist and proud <3 ((Secretly hoping I put this in the right Section xD))

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Dun worry, you put this in the right section. (Btw, I honestly don't think you should be watching/reading yaoi/yuri at your age. But I can't stop you so...) And I can relate to you - I've always been called weird and bipolar at school.

I had all these weird rumors about me lol. And that's why i left; so I could get out of my depression and come back a sexy babe and un-depressed B)

I have to say I don't regret it, but I do regret staying in cyber school as long as I had. I wish I went back to school last year. I have no friends and interactions anymore with anyone outside my family and I don't think it's doing well for my brain xD

Oh well, I know you said nothing about cyber school but I just wanted to share my thoughts on it because I feel like we can relate to how we were treated in school (which is why I went into cyber school).

All I can say is hang in there, do what makes you happy, and sometimes you just have to force yourself to smile. I also think you're just what's called "blunt", which I am, too xD But there is a difference between being just blunt and being mean, so watch what you say.

Just get through it. And hey, maybe your life will turn out like Sawako's from Kimi Ni Todoke, and it'll all change when you get into high school :p Though I doubt you'd want to wait that long, actually xD

I'll try to keep this short, as I tend to go on.
If you are eleven years old, you are well worded for your age, a sign (among others) that you are above many your age, but only in intellect, not in societal worth. Try not to look down on others for seeming dumber than you.

You say you are easily upset when people call you something as simple as 'weirdo'. Tu quoque, you are upset that you can't openly and honestly express your opinions towards someone, even if it may offend people. Try to look at both sides of any situation.
Other than that just relax. That is the best thing you can do socially, and otherwise. don't worry about the little things. You are young, and your problems are the type that will go away as you age. It only seems like a long time when you focus on the bad things.

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don't judge OP to hard for yaoi/yuri. I was watching porn by that age, and I didn't even have a computer, all I had was a VHS stolen from a friend, who stole it from his friend, who stole it from his dad....Really had to work for the little things back in the day.
Also if you are in an online high school, and miss the basic human interactions from a normal school. Get a part time job, maybe some fast food gig on the weekends. This way you get to talk to people of all ages, get some spending money, life experience, and a reason to leave the house.

>>3 "Really had to work for the little things back in the day."

No shit. XD But I also think watching such things so early isn't normal... I think being exposed so early to adult videos and adult conversations stunts the childhood a bit too much, which isprobably why he's having a hard time getting along with others his age.

But what Nobody said, you're a real bright kid, and honestly,here's a lil secret... In America everyone is sensitive. They hate to admit it, but I mean, we get so riled up about practically anything. We're all afraid of getting our feelings hurt, being at the bottom of the food chain, so most push others down to remain higher or eventually on top. But we're not all like that.
My best suggestion is finding friends on here or tumblr, or anywhere else online to talk to and build up your confidence. For me, talking to folks online for a while, and just having fun with random strangers is like a practice round before I go out and be just as fun around strangers and friends alike. Just get rid of all your worries and troubles on here, have fun, and then whenever you leave the house you won't have to pretend you're happy. You'll be like a magnet attracting people to you.
(shrugs) At least that's how it works for me.

Intelligent people usually don't fit in at school. Most kids will do anything to fit in, to the point that they're all just copies of the same person. Stay true to who you are, because you are you for a reason. There's nothing wrong with you and don't ever think that there is. Seriously, people like you are a hell of a lot more interesting than some generic kid in your school calling you immature names. And if you really can't deal with lonliness, online friends are the way to go. There's some amazing people out there, all you need to do is find them.

>>1 Holy shit, this post just touched my heart... That post explained pretty much me (minus the age, but I was similar at the same age, though).

My advice is to stay after school and mess about. You can talk to some of the teachers or, if your school has one, head to the workout room and pump a bit of iron (working out is really good for your body physically and has so many benefits; it makes you feel amazing). If you feel lonely, join extracircular activities. There are many things you can do, and many friends you could make while enjoying activities you like to do. If you like yaoi and yuri, I suggest joining the LGBT club (if you have one), and if you don't have one, try to start one.

The important thing is to get out of the house and do something. Go to the library and talk to the librains and read some manga and stuff there.

I'd post more and make my whole post a bit more... decent (yeah, let's just go with that) if I wasn't at school amd surronded by ghetto niggas.

>>3 I wasn't judging, I just said how I personally don't like 11 year olds looking at that stuff. xD It's just my opinion though :P

And I am volunteering at a library rigt now and working on doing things outside the house. It's just different then going to school and automatically having people to talk to.

And I forgot about online friends. Just like everyone said, you can also get friends online and since there's a bigger variety of people online than your school you're bound to find some people to talk too :P

There is a little monster inside all of us we deny. As humes we are taught to forget that we ourselves are animals, holding ourselves as superior to a dog or monkey. Animals kill to survive; it is just as natural for us (we are animals, after all). To deny nature is to deny life. We use evil fantasies such as murder or physical assault to keep ourselves civilized and sane... However, when one denies this aspect, when they kid themselves that this monster does not exsist, there is less and less chance for growth, and more than likely their monster will step out of the world of dreams and into the world of reality.
This is how society gets messy: lots of neglected, unfed, hungry monsters. Someone once told me that "you only feel when you bleed," meaning that you only feel life when you feel pain. Pain is a food; it is an essential food to one's growth and nourishment. It is pain-food that wears down on the teeth, and we are stronger because of this.

Our dark solitude is shared by others in life's deep dark pit of darkness; it is hard to be one's true self when one cannot be acknowledged by others... This dreary world requires and demands that one be idle if they, like me, have a progressive nature.
The problem lies with perception... Human nature dictates that when people see something they don't understand or dont want to understand, they freak the fuck out. But since man cannot kill whatever they do not understand anymore, we kill it, but in a different sense. We cope by ridiculing it and/or depicting it as some sort of thing wrong or disgusting.
Eventually, however, something breaks through and becomes popular. Over time you have more people doing more and more of something not because of personal expression, but because we hope to become popular as well or to seek something for personal gain.
There is also casualties among these conflicts... Properties that become so synonymous with a particular group or subculture it pretty much ruins it for the general public despite what good qualities it/they may have.
As an example, fill in these blanks:

If you are gay, you like ________.
If you're a nerd, your favorite televison show is _________.
If you're Asian, your best subject in school is ____.
If you're black, your favorite food is ____________.

You say you're a misanthrope... It is so easy to say you hate something... It is so easy to hate... What a piece of shit people that only are... They only yearn for the easy way...

Orangies, and others who are reading this, I guess the whole thing I'm trying to say is don't take yourself or others too seriously. Try new things and encourage others to try new things (with the obvious exceptions (i.e. meth, murder, stealing, rape, etc)). Work to debunk misconceptions and to get others to try new things; don't get territorial about ways of life, yours or there's, and do not over-criticize any new comers that show interest. Whether you dish negative energy out (such as degrading others) or are the victim(s) of such, do not thrive on the negative energy, for you will only become selfish, moody, whiny, attention-grabbers that set up hoops one must jump through in order to be liked or popular.

... Orangies, if you ever want someone to talk to, you can come to me. My Skype is daymanlisdianinsix.

@#8 (Day/Dia since I don't know how to do that link-thingy): Thanks for the post. It put the stuff I kinda already knew in a new and (in my opinion)interesting perspective that I probably will be thinking about for awhile. Like whether human nature, with its negative and prejudicial parts, is an extension of animal nature that only comes out with or is enhanced by higher intelligence (ignorance is bliss). For example, the human response to something that is strange or non-understandable is an overeaction to an animalistic instinctive warieness of the unknown, like the dark, where predators or enemies may be hiding. Or whether humans are destroying what makes humans and a few other animals stand out: our uniquenes, individuality, and sense of ego. Fascinating. Sorry, going philisophical on a supposed-to-be vent thread.

@#1 (Orangies): The library near me has an anime club. You can look and see if yours has one or ask if one could be formed since those tend to attract teens rather than kids (I think). Or you can take adult community classes in hobbies you enjoy like writing, pottery, photography, world languages, cooking, etc.(just examples from my town) if your town has community classes and your parents and the people who run the classes let you. I would think that adults wouldn't be as insensitive towards your feelings, like calling you weirdo, and you could express or let out some of your emotions so you wouldn't feel as depressed. Take these with a grain of salt, though, since these are untested suggestions, and I have yet to work my way out of a very similar situation to yours.

>>9 You just use >> and the number.

Examples: >>8 >>1