It's more then just built up anger, and it's even more then rage. Sometimes it feels like I have a monster inside me, and I do all I can to keep it form coming out. And I don't mean that metaphorically. Sometimes I literally want to show my fangs(I say fangs not just because it sounds better, but also because I have abnormally sharp canines) and rip a person to shreds.
used to it was just when I was angry, now it's like I'm having to hold my self back all the time. I can feel the urge to rip and shred in the back of my mind all the time, just a couple of weeks ago I snapped at my GF's friend, I screamed at her, not in a normal angry way but in a way.. I don't really know how to describe it to be honest. Honestly, I feel like a rabid dog, wanting to rip through flesh not just with my hand but with my teeth too.
90% of the time I'm having to choke down a growl.
I'm not just angry, and I don't just have rage, I literally sometime want to rip every inch of skin form a persons bones.
The thing is, this is not me, it never has been. I love people, I feel pathetic when I can't help someone, I don't love being around people, I love the actual human race, and I hate my self for having these... urges...
I think the fact that you are having murderous and gorey intentions for unjustifiable and invalid reasons is extremely unhealthy. Having urges bordering on sadism like that is not considered normal. I would recommend seeing a therapist or someone of medical experience. Do you have any idea as to what are causing these spouts of rage?
>>1 you're quite just like my best friend, but he is like being a monster when he gets seriously angry. He can't control himself, he breaks anything he sees.
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