I'm tired of living in two worlds (Reality and a Dream/Fantasy)... All that I ask for is to refresh and start anew... But the fear of huge criticism is holding me back, yet I deal with it every single day of my life. How am I supposed to live in reality and make my own decisions when I'm striving to make it as perfect as it can be? If I make any changes now, I'm very well aware that everyone whom I interact with, will think I'm crazy. I know that I will seem to regret the beginning of it, but I'm sure that if it continue everything will be sorted out..

I think that if you want to make any changes in your life, just do it as long as you think its right. There will always be people around us who will put us down and think that we are crazy, but we have to accept it and allow criticism to make us stronger. There can never be such a thing as a perfect reality but we can always strive to make things better. Just don't become so obsessed with it till it takes over your entire self. Don't give up and remember, the world is not as bad as you think. Good luck!