What meaning does it have, what impact? I'm not suicidal, but I fear that I draw closer to that every day. I wake up in the morning, I repeat the same day over and over, and for what? What meaning does it have? It feels like exist just for the sake of existing, and it's driving me insane. Please, somebody help me find a reason to exist, I just can't take it. Please.

First off, cross those suicidal thoughts off, and throw them behind you. Your life is not for anyone to take and least of all you to take. I feel the same way too, rerpeating days and weeks over. But I love any sunset and rise, seasons, and feel priveleged to be able to enjoy all the world's natural wonders and curiosities-I love living!
Do you have family or friends - anyone who knows you? Anyone who cares? Frankly, I'm not sure I can be of much help, but just talk to someone and get the weight off your aching back!
Talk to me!

Thank you. I have family but I don't feel they care. And I haven't had friends in a while. Thank you for trying to help me. It means a lot.

Let me ask you something;
If your life didnt mean anything why would you exist in the first place?

There are people who doesnt want you to die. If they want you to, I dont want.

If they dont care, I care.

See? You found a person who doesnt want you to die. And remember Durararas firstepisode? If you die, you wont be any different from other corpses.

I know, you hate repeating same things over and over again and you arent the only one who finds it pointless. I hate repeating the same things but I have a dream to make it true so I cant die. Noy right now.

Just put a goal and it will be easier to live, because you will have a reason to live.

>>4
I guess you're right. I'll try that. Thank you for caring enough to reply.

>>5

I cared to reply because I do care what happens to you.

>>6 Thank you so much. Also, I saw your love letter thread before it got deleted. I have to say I hope that guy enjoys that album, and that you two get together at some point.

Sorry for the late reply, it's kinda hard to get onto the computer. I'm glad to be of some help. And I got off track of your original query. Ano. Baka. Eneliph.
I actually don't have frequent friends. Most of them are far, and I don't go out very often. Sometimes it feels like I don't friends at all. Reason is that I've separated too many times with some that I've stop trying so hard. And finding good and true ones is like finding the needle in a haystack.
Do you connect with your family often?

>>7

I hope so and thank you :)

My lil sis delete it when my mother called me and I cant bother writing it again :D