1 Name: Nonie : 2013-01-29 13:13 ID:7Arh08r0 [Del]
I've been having problems, I want help.. I want to go to my friends, or the people I know, but I'm scared to tell them..I dont know why.. So.. I want to post here my problem, and I would like to ask you guys to help me... I don't check here so often.. so the best place to contact me is by my ((dollar friends)) email and facebook... lil671nonie@gmail.com, http://facebook.com/vi.vii.i.nene.girl
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Okay..so here's my big problem...
I barely saw my life bad.. I thought it was just okay and good. Till the June of 2012. My brothers girlfriend,((she is 5 years older))and I don't get along so well, we are nice at times, but yet we say the wrong things to each other... She's calls me "competitive" ,and my friends think that's crazy because I'm really nice, but it's true... I am competitive with her, because ever since she joined the family, she's always trying to be loved... and I get pushed away... Because I don't want to try to grab all the attention.. I was always jealous of her... My own little sister I always use to play with before she joined, choose her over me always..and it hurts me..and I don't have much friends, in real life, so I depended on the Dollars chat. I had many online siblings, and all the cool people I can talk to, that make me don't feel alone. One day, I was just on chat, trying to help another friend who was sad. She was cleaning the house and asked me to use my Ipod, the device I was using. I told her "No." She always get what she wants, and I'm usually to nice to say "No." to anyone. She started hating me more. I would try to be nice ,smile and wave, she'll bump into my shoulder and look away saying "hmp"... Even thought that's stupid of her, I'm really sensitive and felt really sad.. I told my mom about it, all she told me was "Just forget it.. We know she's different, and if she leaves , she takes your brothers baby away from him..so be nice"... I just said "okay", because I don't want my brother to loose his baby. Later on that night my brother, came home and got mad at me about that... I started crying... Then one day, before we where going to a family reunion for my dad's side of the family. Her and my mom had a disagreement, in the kitchen, I was just in the garage drawing, and I heard her yelled "YOU ARE STUPID LIKE YOU'RE DAUGHTER, SHAMEFUL, MEAN,WORTHLESS, NO FOR GOOD, IDIOT!" I knew she was talking about me...because my little sister was stupid to be in her side. So I opened the door and started yelling at her, "ME STUPID! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO GOES TO A ADULT EDUCATION! WHERE I GO TO A GOOD SCHOOL, GETTING COLLEGE CREDITS IN HIGH SCHOOL! YOU CANT EVEN PASS HIGH SCHOOL! YOU ALWAYS ASK ME TO HELP FOR HOMEWORK! HOW AM I WORTHLESS ,WHEN I WAS THE WORTH TO HELP YOU, AND MEAN! I'M NICE!!!!"... She then yelled back "I WASNT TALKING TO YOU" then I said "BUT YOU TALKED ABOUT ME, I HAD THE RIGHT TO COME INTO THE CONVO!" She then ran inside and started breaking everything in her room. I went into my room crying, because..I never wanted to fight... I tried to say sorry...but she wouldnt accept my apologize...even thought it's no one to blame...I'm always the one trying to say sorry... Later that night, my mom told my brother about it, and he came to me hugging me saying it's not my fault..I know it's not..but I just have a scar in my heart that tells me it is. During the time, I became selected of the people I talk to on chat, because I'm scared to get hurt more. The only person I really trust in real life, she barely around , because her mom used my family to drop my cousin and her sister to cheat. Then when my uncle told my mom about it, my aunt was stupid and made my cousins stop coming over..It hurt me more knowing, I can't be with the only one I trust in real life. Back to my brothers girl friend, my mom couldn't take it one day, and told her and my bro to move out... They did during my sixteen birthday, my family was about to have something big for me till all these problems starting going on, so all we did was bowl, and ate cookie cake.. But anyways, my brothers girl friend, wont allow us to see my bro neither the baby. It hurts me to see that my bro had to sneak over to visit for a few minutes because I said "no"... it also hurts me more, when I see my mom watch videos on her phone of the baby and hear my mom crying in sleep saying " i miss my son"... i felt like i couldnt stand in so much, I always try to suffocate my self,but get to scared too... So i depended on chat again, because I can laugh... I then met someone I thought was so cool, but everyone hated him, I ignored and hang with him and them, because I don't make people choose for me who to talk to. I found out he goes to my school, so we met and hang out. After a while, we became boyfriend and girlfriend. I was happy, but still hurt seeing my mom and brother hurt ,because of me. A few times, I tried to kill my self, but speaking to him makes me stop. Then one day, me and him was talking and i nearly passed out. He took me to my friends, half way and left me alone to walked the rest. I didn't know why, but I had a random , break down, fell crying, my friends tried to help me but I couldn't stop crying, and he just watched... I only feel protected in his arms. After the break down, he hanged around with me less, and then broke up with me last night... I could never hugged anyone in real life without feeling weird...now the person I really loved, that i felt comfortable in the arms of is ashamed of me... I hadn't have a break down in public for years...The last time, I was watching a play in a field trip and my friend couldnt stop making fun of me, teasing me, i started freaking out ,crying,shaking, i started yelling "get a adult!" she kept telling everyone "DONT!SHE'LL TELL ON ME"... ever since that, i always kept quiet and dont want much friends... Now, i feel like i have no one
2 Name: Sakon : 2013-01-30 05:28 ID:8lzeTy02 [Del]
Life is a hard and cruel struggle. I cant say things will get better, I cant say that there is hope and there is some divine life force looking over us, But Ill say this, Are you going to let this happen? Are you going to be the one who feels lonely and empty because of others? Do not fall under people, do not be a door mat any more! People say shit to you or about you confront them, question them in front of their friends, you may get teased, bullied, and beaten down, but dont give up, fight back and show them you will not give up or crumble under their pathetic bullshit show them you are stronger then that and them, and even if you loose a fight and walk away with more bruises or cuts then the other person you made a stand, you stood up for yourself when nobody else did, serve yourself! and make people prove themself to you before letting them in, she wont let you see your brother or child? dont take no for an answer! she cant win custody over a child if shes the one at fault. FIGHT BACK, DO NOT GIVE UP, DO NOT GIVE IN. You show people you have the ability to not take shit you will earn respect. It will take time and alot of tears, but the outcome will be better, and you will live a happy life.
Good Luck,
5 Name: dxb!!1iXgfdW/ : 2013-01-30 16:49 ID:HI9/cGWz [Del]
I know what it feels like to be the source of family problems. It always hurts when you know someone is in pain because of something you did voluntarily or involuntarily. That doesn't mean you created this mess. It was your ipod, not hers. You had every right to say no to her. And about the argument, you where defending you family and your self pride. You had every right and every reason to go in there and say those things. You didn't start this, she did. Like
>>2 said, life is going to be rough at times and I can't promise you it will get better. You won't always have things your way, but you can compromise. Talk some sense in your brother. Show him how unhealthy his relationship is for the family and how controlling the girlfriend is. In my opinion, it's only a matter of time before they get in an argument and break up anyways. Convince him to take the girlfriend for custody of the child. At the very least he can get joined custody of the child and that way the girlfriend can not keep him from you, your brother, or your mom. You have every right to be angry at the girlfriend, but you shouldn't just give in because she can out scream you and thinks she has all the cards. Just because she's older, and is dating your older brother doesn't mean she can control the whole house.
As for your boyfriend, he's not the only person in the world. He may not be ready for a real relationship where the two share their problems and express emotion to each other. I'm not entirely sure but I can tell you that he probably wasn't worth your time if he couldn't even try to understand what you where going through.
As for the bit about public break downs, that is not something to be ashamed of. Everyone has a breaking point. I have been described by friends as and emotional rock and i often find myself overwhelmed by emotion that has been locked away for sometimes years. It's ok to express emotions.
As for the last bit, I am pretty much the same, but I can tell you that you are not alone. It sometimes just takes some searching to find the people you can trust to be there for you.
