1 Name: Venom : 2013-01-18 23:29 ID:EKRDctZI [Del]
so I;m a cutter. Think what you want, and before you ask,'Why do you cut?" Quite simply I'm not completely sure.
I mean yes, I was bullied from 2nd grade to 8th grade. Yes, I have daddy issues. Yes my mom has hit me, yelled at me, called me stupid,treated my like I'm stupid. Yes, my brothers have shunned me. Yes, I have had family members die. Yes, I do feel inadequite about my performance in some aspects of my life. I do critizize myself because I'm used to it-all thanks to my dear mother.
I don't know if there is something really wrong with me, or if I'm just being a stupid teenager. But all I really know is that ever since I was in 3rd grade I've wanted to die.
Sometimes I honestly believe that I'm an attention-whore, or that I'm pathetic,or ugly because I;m used to verbal insults, and I can just shove all the pain I have down. It just goes away, like that. I forget,and every thing's better. Until something bad happens and then I remember again and I start having bad thoughts. So I leave this for you to think what you want. Go ahead and judge me, In all honesty I'm really just trying to figure what the hell is wrong with me.
2 Name: Mikoto-chan : 2013-01-19 09:55 ID:m9hME5Y1 [Del]
"Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem,first make sure that you are not,in fact,just surrounding yourself with assholes."
I think this quote really fits you.Remember this: it's not your fault that the people surrounding you are complete douchebags!I know you're feeling terrible right now and you want to erase yourself,just like you never existed in the first place,but you have to be strong.Someday,it will all change,you'll see.When you grow up,you'll get your own job and you'll be able to run away from everything that's hurting you!You'll be FREE to do anything you want!If you feel like cutting,do it.I am not going to criticize you for it or tell you that you need help.If cutting makes you forget all the misery you're going through,then I think you are free to do so.If you keep it all in,it will definitely destroy you and make you feel even worse,so you can cut...Also,I know that this doesn't help much,but I believe that you are a really admirable person for being able to go on with all those problems that you have.Believe me,you are amazing and unique and you don't deserve to go through this.So for now,just be patient!It may take you a long time,but someday,things will definitely change for the better!I hope I was able to help!:)
