I have a lot of friends...Yes, we are close. Yeah, hanging around after school...etc. But we are in different classes, while I'm in lets say A class, all of them are in B class. It feels weird...Really...The real problem is that, they feel so distant away. I mean, yes, we always seem to be close, and yet I feel like if I don't make myself existing to them, I'm not there at all. They have this friend that whenever she comes to them they hug her like death, and others they become super excited when they see each other. I feel like I'm a left out, and yet other time when we are together they act so much like friends that I find being with them rather complicating (and trying to explain my situation becomes complicating too. I'm always the one active, talking to them, jumping to them. They react normal, dodging away laughing. Sometimes, I'm kinda scared that I'm actually just an irritating person to them and they are just trying to be nice. Maybe me being active is annoying? I always know my limit and try not to be so jumpy sometimes, and it's scary to see them annoyed by me, which happens before. I'm too jumpy and active that I'm annoyed with myself. I laugh too much, sometimes too childish. I want to be colder actually, more mature, be the one showing that I'm annoyed with them. I sometimes am, but too...should I say "nice"? To say it. I grow sensitive to these friends now, sometimes they throw me a cold stare and I'm scared enough to avoid them the whole afternoon. I'm becoming like a coward. People tell me to express my feelings to them, but it turns out rather awkward, giving me this feeling that I'm oversensitive---I am. I am oversensitive many times, so I choose to hide it. I'm still this active girl who jumps to them, I try hiding that habit now, but seeing other person doing that to them and they just happy to be jumped on, seeing myself being thrown a cold stare and after school still willing to go home with her (one of them) because she's lonely go home herself. Maybe this group of friends are not for me, I want to let go yet afraid to. I don't know what to do, I'm scared.

If they don't like you they would have told you a long time ago. But if you feel lonely and they can't help you with that, just stop being around them. The more I type this, the more I realize it's terrible advice, but make a few friends around this site, begin to build your confidence up until you feel ready to make friends with those physically around you. I'm doing the same thing, hence my thread just below this one. It's hard but I'm sure I'll find some friends eventually. Sorry if this wasn't very helpful.

I know how it feels to seem distant from your friends, but it might not be as bad as you think. That's all I really have to say.

I wish i could help. I really do, but im in the same sittuation as you(and a few others) are so my advice may or may not help. I would say find a few new friends who dont mind you for who you are. Keep the others as "contacts"(inbetween friend and random people) as i like to call them, but hang out with some new people. I hope i helped.(sorry for any misspellings)

I had that. Just chill, take things as they come. If the friendship really isn't working out, or if you're so dependant on the group that you feel scared with or without them, I'm sorry to say it may not last. Things like that happened. It definately happened to me.
If you want, I'll be a friend. E-mail me at Kitaya.kun@gmail.com if you ever want to talk, or need someone "around." I'll be there for you. This goes for anyone who reads this and just wants to talk or be friends.

Welcome to the club!!I'll just tell you this:that is just the way friends ARE.Deal with it...I have the same problem,too but I'm actually so hurt by some "friends" of mine that now,I can actually find out who are the fake friends(the ones that will use you when they need you and ignore you when they don't)and the REAL friends(p.s. real friends are very hard to find,if not impossible).Your friends sound like they are fake...Sorry,but I'm just letting you know the truth.Don't worry!Many friends are fake nowadays!!You should just use them until you find a new group of friends and then forget all about them...On the other hand,the problem might be you...You may be too annoying at times.But even if you were annoying,your real friends would still love you,I guess...Well,that's all.I hope I helped.

I am going through this with some of my own friends too.Except they haven't given me any stares or anything.My problem is I don't jump, but I'm trying to.Its even harder now cause I switched schools and its awkward trying to juggle friends from 2 schools.But I say to stick with them.Not like, hanging out all the time, but instead just being on good terms with them.Find new friends that you can be yourself with.And until, and even if, you do find new friends, try to keep the others at an arms length so they don't backstab you when you leave them.My e-mail is kpopperz9@gmail.com if you want to, email me.I'll be glad to listen.Honestly :)