Im 16,

Things are hard, but they arent? I have a loving family. and friends, but please tell me, why cant I feel happy. nothing I do nowhere I go, nothing changes, day in day out things remain the same, I feel so empty all the time. I dont know what to do anymore, I dont want to keep living like this. I just dont know how to have fun anymore,I miss being a child so much. I feel like im just existing. why do things happen like this, am I the only one? I get so jealous whenever my girlfriend talks to a guy even though I find it hard to talk to her, my parents are always busy. I just cant take life anymore. I just want things to go back to how they were, to innocence, but I just cant, nothing I do helps me. I've gone to doctors, but nothing changes. I love my family, my friends and my girlfriend. but I cant build up the courage to be near them, my girlfriend says Im never happy. I just feel so down all the time and its killing me guys, I act happy and smile as much as I can, In hopes Ill actually become happy. but it just makes me feel sick. If things dont change I cant gurrentee Ill make it much longer. I look into traffic and just think whats the point. I dont want to keep doing this. I cant, Please just tell me, am I the only one? and if im not why do I feel so alone all the fucking time, it makes me so angry and sad I dont want to get up in the morning. Im sick of life and its barely begun. does it get better? Should I just go my own way and just look out for myself? I just dont know, I feel so guilty all the time and I dont know why. This isent a plead for attention. Im scared, I dont know how much more I can take before I give up. Please I dont want to give up. but I feel like Im constantly running out of options, I just lay in bed and cry. I dont even know why Im crying. I am just so sick of everything, and nothing interests me anymore. I cant keep fighting guys. I just cant. mabye Im weak but I dont care, everything must run its course, I keep getting told it gets better, everytime "it gets better dont worry" and "thats just how things go" but thats not enough anymore, kind words can only get so far, how can we all just live ur lives while people everywhere are dieing and giving up, I feel so pathetic because even though I have no problems. i feel like giving up, how fucking selfish is that.

People, please if you have been through this please tell me how to stop feeling like im so empty and sad all the time. Please.

Im at my wits end and I just cant take it anymore.

our lives*

I've been feeling like that for the last 2 years. I had a girlfriend too, and she'd tell me things like:"why aren't you happy?". We broke up and weeks laters she was going out with a friend. Just...don't let her go.

First off at least you had a childhood. I grew up fast, due to being beat. I learned how to lie to others and decieve them from elementary on.

On topic though, life is what you make of it. Right now I feel somewhat that I am doing the same thing everyday, which I mainly am. I will be going back to school next semester, but right now I work at a fast food joint almost everyday. Almost nothing changes, and I get that, but I make the best of it. I compare it to when I was going to school, and it was fun learning new things every week. I don't really know how to do it, but view the good things in the day, and not focus on the repetitive stuff.

On another note, if you are sad, or depressed, with no apparent reason writing can help. I didn't know for a while why I had a lingering depression. But through writing I found out what was causing most of that depression. It took me about 2-3 years and hundreds of pages later to figure out most of the things that bothered me was what I did as a result to the beatings. I am not sure how deep your problems go, but I think writing can help organize your thoughts and make sense of your problems more.

Hey. Kid. We have threads for complaining. This belongs there, and does not warrant its own thread. Read the FAQ.

I am glad you are scared, because that means you still care enough to be scared. The problem you are having seems to be due to repetition of events. At least that what it was for me when I was feeling similarly. The real way to defeat it, is to fight repetition. You will have to quest for something to break repetition. If you have some extra free time, do something you wouldn't normally do! If you find things that are fun to do then it will break the chain. The easiest way to find something fun is to find many new things, then something will probably be fun. Of course this is from my own experience, your problem may be something different.
Signed Z

You recognize your weakness so you must act on it. With the support of your family and others you should not have much trouble getting back to the spirit of living again. Everyone is dieing yes, but will you allow yourself to fall like they did? Hell no! Live goddammit, life is so beautiful it's magical even. And every once in a while we suffer and want to give but we overcome it and find something better, an answer. If we suffer we overcome then become stronger. That's why life is beautiful, no mater what may come we can overcome. Some fall and it's a shame but you wont do the same will you? Keep going because there is a better tomorrow; the road is painful so deal with it but your will find happiness. If you worry about others falling to the darkness you can help them by showing them your strength, give them hope and give them kindness and support like your love ones do for you.

Me 2, Except I don't have a Bf. I'm getting better. How did I do that... Oh! I know! I added something to that list of things I do daily. 2 things: I started to watch Pewdiepie's videos (Makes me laugh so much XD) and I watch humorous animes. Give it a try :)

You sound like you have medical depression. Make sure to talk to your parents about it. This is not your fault. Please read about major depression on wiki. Your not alone and there are solutions to rid yourself of this.

wow...you sound just like me!!! ok so my way to deal is to watch anime, asian dramas and TVD. yea, i know, not the best but it makes me feel better so....

I can see what you mean there..your just like me..I am going through the same things atm as well..but the dollars are here to help ya ! We need to stick together. do not worry everything will work out in the end !!!!!!!

Could I ask, do you have a picture of yourself crossdressing? If it may help, you could show a picture of yourself as a girl and say that your a girl and see if people believe you or not.
You can even say: "This girl that i know, people call her ugly and mean stuff but i tell her that she isn't, am i wrong or are those guys wrong?".
If people say: "What matters is inside", not very pretty BUT they think your a girl.
If they say "She looks really nice, they are just trying to be mean." then you know your pretty yummy.
Hahaha... but seriously, you could give it a try.

Cheers and good luck.

If all doesn't work, there is enough people in the world to be accepted for whatever you want to be.
Just don't come at me bro. (haha?no? okey.. :C)

Ik how u feel. How 'bout u try something new or just out of the ordinary to spicy up ur life evry now & then. Not saying u should go out 4 a 1 nite stand, just hav some major fun once in a while 2 appreciate life a little more.

You are not alone, I seem to be going through the same situation. Although I may be in the 8th grade, because of certain situations that have come to tuition I feel that I am different from everyone else my age. However, I have friends, and a loving mother. I can't find the reason for this depression. I do different things in school everyday and it doesn't seem to help me.
However, what I would suggest is try finding a new hobby? Perhaps art or even Cosplay if you love anime. Something that you find enjoyable, weather it is making music or listening to it. (Music tends to help me a lot.) Some other suggestions would be game design, or gaming in general. I will also say this.
"It will get better, don't worry." That saying in a two edged sword. Change can only happen if you allow it to.
Good luck.
~signed .,Otaku,.

Sounds like depression to me.However,I'm just like you.(But I've got a completely different problem)What did the doctors you've gone to tell you?

Well, I don't have a solution to your problem because I'm going through the same thing and don't even know why. My only suggestion is listen to music, play games, or read in your free time to just waist free time where you would usually be sitting around feeling sad. It's not a good long term fix but it gets me through the day. I know how useless what i will say next is but I've got nothing better to say. You're not alone. Hang in there. Think of all the people who want or need you to fight. Think of all the people who sacrificed something so you would be here now reading this post and use those people as a reason to keep going. I know that's probably not what you wanted to hear, but it's something that helps me through the day. Just think about it.
Good luck,
DXB

Thank you, all of you, you guys are amazing, really. I honestly appreiciate this, You have all given me alot to think about. I hope those who are going though what im going though or anything really I hope it gets better. thank you guys. :)

I know what you're feeling, and I've DEFINITELY felt that way before. >>16 is right, don't let yourself dwell on it too much. Wallowing in it only makes it worse. My suggestion would be to get involved in something. For me, it was my faith that brought me through it. In my opinion, God is the best solution. But I know that others aren't always too enthralled by that suggestion, and I don't want to force anything on anyone.
If you don't like that suggestion, then just get involved in something. Find something that DOES make you happy, set a goal, and charge after it. Dreams for the future, something you want to have, something you want to do.

At least do something to consume your time. Minecraft is always an option. Only if you want all your waking hours consumed, though.
Me, I'm an artist and writer. I can retreat to the fantasy universes inside my head when I need some time to myself. Not a good permanent solution, but often enough to improve my outlook on life when I need it.

Do something you love and are good at, for me its dance, when im dancing i just float away and everythings alright, i do the same with video games, anime and books; not to escape reality, just move to a better one.

Life isn't that bad, there are people out there who want to help, proof of this is the very website we're on, the Dollars are people who WANT to help and be helped in return, if you need anything that the Dollars can help with, all you need to do is ask

Don't give up
TK

I've felt that many times before, I've been in the same situation, and like Ei, I also retreat into fantasy. But still, that little voice of reason in the back of my head speaks up, and starts shouting, "Reality!" I really want that voice to shut up sometimes. But when it doesn't, I start thinking about what's to come, Christmas hol's in a few weeks, the weekend, baby neice or second cousin on the way. If that doesn't work look around for things you normally wouldn't, like a certain amount of squirrels, or a cardinal or a blue jay.
But that doesn't solve the fact I still want to be my inocent, child like self who got to watch cartoons, and didn't second guess what everyone was saying to me. But everything changes. Except God. God has forever been a constant in my life, He's my light when things seem dark, He teaches me, and answers me when I question my life.
When I was little, I remember being afraid of the dark, and my sis told me 'It's because we can't see anything else in the dark, and we feel alone. But Jesus, God, He's always with us.'
And that 'always' has stuck. He is the constant in my life, has been and forever will be. So maybe pick up a bible, and pray for Him to be the constant, and the salvation, the light of your life.
~Kitaya-kun :I'm praying for you.

Kitaya-kun is super duper 100% right! :]

I know how you feel, I used to feel the same way when I was younger. You're never alone :) so don't even think about that because that's just false!
You should really read about my past a little :D Maybe it might help you out a little.
If you go to the Anonymous Letters Thread, I wrote a letter to someone named Em. my posts are numbers 218 and 219 (219 being a continuation).
http://dollars-bbs.org/personal/res/1346767429.html

^^^^^Here's a link to the anonymous Letters thread in case you couldn't find it ;P haha!
God will always be with you :) no matter what happens in your life or how useless you begin to feel, He'll always be there for you. He loves all of us unconditionally, so even if you've made so many mistakes in the past and you feel like you're such a terrible person and that you can never be forgiven, God has already forgiven you. Pray to Him for guidance and healing through your hard times :) Keep your chin up! You can choose to be happy or choose to be miserable, and obviously choosing to be happy is a much better way to go ;) haha