THIS THREAD DOES NOT SUPPORT SUICIDES.. Everybody in the world at some point wishes to die or has a numerous amount of problems that makes you feel very alone. This thread is meant to help people talk about their issues and to help push them away from depression , and suicide. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. say whatever you want to get out of your mind and somebody will listen NO JUDGEMENTS PLEASE

I Have tried to kill myself before in the past.
Once again I feel the same way. I'm different, that's
why death is my only option. I don't belong anywhere.
Even my own family loathes and despises me!Cause I'm such
a fuckup that's why. I ditch school, I procrastinate day in
and day out. I'm on the edge of a cliff and I'm about to fall off.
How can I help and save the world when I can't even save myself.

Years ago I tried to off myself, but I couldn't do it. Knowing my brother and mom would be mourning my death and the bastards that picked on me at school had succeeded in pushing me over the edge was not an option. I wanted them to suffer like I did and I can't bring myself to every try and itentionally make my family sad. They mean too much to me. My condolences to the friends and family of those who have committed suicide.

>>2 No one has to save the world by themselves. I know how it feels not to belong. My "friends" insult my pathetic waist of a life every day and my mom and dad left me when I was born. But sometimes you have to push through. You should start going to school. Ask teachers for help if you need it. Do what you can to get by. Life isn't easy. You're not going to be spoon fed all your life but the struggle pays off most of the time. Even if you feel small and insignificant, you still play a part in the big picture.

I hate admitting my depression. Admitting that I've cut... alot. Or that I've tried to end my life as an escape from the weight of the world. I try to hide my true feelings and bare my burdens alone. When I try to invole other people things never go as planned. Im ashamed of what I've done. So it's difficult to open up to people. I'm sure others feel the same. You may feel like life can be overwhelming, like you have no purpose for being, or like everyone is against you. The thing is that once your dead it's over. You've ended your chances of being happy, finding love, or learning your "purpose". Suicide is easy, now living.... that's the real challenge. Don't give up. I haven't yet.

Sometimes, life seems meaningless. It is funny, every time I feel sad I start sounding kind of deep but I really not try to.
I try to be funny and espontaneous, but I feel I fail miserably. Sometimes I try to see the world as a clock working so beautiful and perfect and I would be fine by just observing life, but I get lonely and sad and I have no friends on my side right now. I try to act as myself, maybe I am always myself, but the thing is that no one seem to be much interested in what I have to say. I thought it was cool that I enjoyed to chat online with people who seem similar to me and funny, but now I feel as being pathetic, trying to look desperately for friends.
I think I always held a chance with making friends, but I never felt like I connected. Negative comments that others say wears me down so much, thank goodness I dont get them often.
Am I really pathetic? Maybe, I try not to think so. I tried to do cool things like drawing or acting with a British accent, try to show interest in others, be myself, try to be funny, I even made imaginary characters that discuss with one another, I write my dreams down and tell them eagerly, I am honest, I try to be espontaneous but today like many days it feels rather lonely.
I guess I have to find a stable friend, would it be really pathetic if that friend is an online friend from like Canada? Yeah probably so.
I guess I want to let my problems go away.
Also, DONT FUCKING KILL YOURSELF.
You can say hi once in a while and tell how you feel...
To this number!: (956) 364-9417
It's my secondary number so try fucking with me all you want, it's really easy to delete it. I just get messages though.
"life is good when you can help yourself..."