My life isnt easy at all. it may not compare to others lives but its difficult.Cleaning and cleaning just to soak away lies and doubts only to follow duty. Now im not saying this just because to think lower or higher of any race. Being many races is hard for me. African amer., Native amer. , and Caucasian. It still doesnt make a difference at all. Being black is hard. Growing up in a black community, dogding through people who could and would jump you if they could. Its fear everywhere. no where to hide not even people. Expectations from everyone one else is low but from my mom its like we have no choice. She wants me excel and i do. when i dont do what she asks me she yells. Constant and constant. Now i know every child would and wouldnt listen to parents regardless. im at the point when i can hate her so much that i would have to go. Losing arguements is proving nothing.Winning them calls for more yelling. Ive been thinking of things to get rid of me, a problem she doesnt need. Running wouldnt be much of a stupid choice. but i think sometimes it always comes down to that one choice.... you know that choice... yes its Death. Just being away is better than coming home to a control freak and someone is prepared but also unprepared to help. This is a lot of words coming from a 15 yr old thats half done his life. i have everything i wanted actually. a good high school but thats all. my family is a disgrace to the face of earth. i sometime think that lies and secrets make up this family. i just wanna go. Leave. Maybe fake death. something. i want something exciting to happen everyday. Id rather travel on the road everyday than stay in a hell hole community. Cuz the main thing is.....We're all broke over here. We may have the intelligence and our humanity but it doesnt help at all. Being notice as someone takes alot but if i were crazy, ignorant and insane it would be so easy to be noticed. Difficult yes easy never.

I don't understand the fuck you're trying to say. Grammar kid.

Secondly, I didn't spot any questions, and we don't throw fucking pity parties. If that's what you're here for, you might as well just go now, because nobody worth a damn really gives a fuck.

There is no point to this thread.

>>2 This.

>>1 Do you understand the concept of a paragraph?

A lot of people have it harder than you. Be glad you have a family and from what I've read they don't abuse/neglect you.

You think your mom is a control freak? I'm sixteen and it can be a city in the off season with like two hundred people and none of them within three blocks and I still can't cross a street. I can't go outside with a chaperon or talking to my mom on a phone and giving descriptions and license plate numbers of all who pass me. At my house I constantly wash/clean objects and I fear I'm getting my dad's mild OCD.

Suck it up. Learn to pick your battles and don't make a pointless thread.

>>1 Welcome to the world of first world problems. Please visit the directory of all the fucks people don't give...wait, you want to know why? Because, shit son, you haven't seen much of what some of us have. Yeah, this is the personal thread, but if you want anyone to care follow these guidelines:

1. Learn to spell and use proper grammar. No one wants to decipher every sentence to try and have so much as a guess as to what you're saying, let alone to hear you gripe and moan about how much you hate your life.

2. Don't just talk about vague problems, if you want help, we need to know what the hell is going on.

3. If it seems like you aren't trying to help yourself, why should we help you? Be aware of this as you construct.

4. Be aware of your anatomy. It doesn't matter how your life is, at 15, everyone thinks they have more problems than they really do. Try to think about whether or not you have a real problem, or if it's hormones. If you believe hormones ARE related to your issue, acknowledging this possibility could aid in your acceptance.

5. If you don't bother to come back and see what people think of your issue, it wasn't that much of a big fuckin' deal was it? We don't pander to those who gripe and run, so if you really want help with something, come back and follow the steps I told you and you may have a better chance of some of us wanting to help.

>>4 Sums it up.

*Throws in my two cents because I'm bored*