So, starting this year and progressively getting worse, I've been very unsocial. Now, there is actually a very good chance that this is because of a person that I met this year- let's call them 'f'- is the reason.
Now, f has a really bad jealousy problem. In fact, in kindergarten, f made it so their first ever best friend never got any other friends.
Now, I don't want to blame them entirely, since there's no way it could be all their fault. But, it is very concerning, since before I met them, I was actually popular. Now, why this probably isn't their fault is the fact that I've been going through a lot this last summer and last year. So, that could be a good reason for why I've lost interest in people.
How am I unsocial? Well, I mostly keep to myself in school, and even though I sometimes want to talk to others, I just can't. Other than that, I mainly just stay home and play on the computer, and the only people I really ever hung out with was f and another person.
During school, F would constantly talk to me, and whenever someone else would try to talk to me, she would get mad and tell them to "Shut the FUCK up! Nobody cares! I'M talking to them! Go the fuck away!"
Now, what I want to ask is, do you think F was trying to make it so I couldn't get friends and socialize? Or was it just me isolating myself and using F as a crutch for my loneliness?

Being around somebody like that can actually deter others from talking to you, for fear of having to get told off by "f."

Chew "f" the fuck out for being a douche, and then see how things play out from there. If they get better, cool. If not, time to put some effort into meeting different people.

>>2 Thanks for the advice. But, well...I'm afraid f is going to cry...F is very...Sensitive. If I even joke by saying "Oh man, you're such a douche lol" f'll will freaking stop talking for a second and then just scream at me saying how I'm a bitch and what did she ever do to me...
So, I'm afraid that if I even MENTION this, she'll erupt. We're already fighting frequently nowadays, and I mean, we do have good times together, so I really don't want to lose her. I just care about her too much to tell her the truth.
God, I sound like such a pansy =.=

F is acting like a spoiled bitch who needs to grow the fuck up. That's it.

Yeah you're pretty much being a pansy.

The truth hurts, but lies hurt more.

Remember that.

Talk to someone else

When F comes

"Shut the FUCK up! Nobody Cares! I'm talking to HER right now", pretty much what she's been doing to you. If not, try to make other friends and tell her of your intentions. She can't be offended if you're trying to be social.

I mean, I normally like Yanderes.. because Yandere, but she's more of a bitch in my opinion. Avoid her if you can and whatever. It's going to become an unhealthy relationship :( Keep an eye on her too. I have a feeling that she's one of those girls who steals your panties and knows all of your secrets. Those types of girls.

WAIT WAIT WAIT! Is unsocial even a word?

Well i think you really should tell her about how you feel, because if it continues you're gonna have big problems to socialize and have new friends especially after graduation. when you'll tell her she may be shocked or angry but if she do really care about you and want to be your friend she would accept it and try to be less "overly attached" , and if she doesn't want to talk to you again don't worry cause you haven't done anything wrong, give her some time to understand it. don't be afraid of telling her the truth if she's your real friend she deserves it, and if not well problem resolved :D
If she can't let you be who you are you do not need her !! And trust I used to have a bff like this few years ago, and now after what she's done to me and others , I 'm glad I'm not her friend anymore.

>>8 Yes =o=

I agree with Mirajane in that you should talk to F. If you don't then it will be harder to be more socially outgoing in the future. And in the worst case scenario she gets angry. You can always make more friends. As long as you are honest in your intentions, whatever happens wont be your fault. I hope it all works out.

>>9>>11 She already said she can't talk to F because F is too immature.

My best advice would be to simply get new friends and see how you can interact with them. Meet a new group of people, unrelated to 'f', and see if you still have these issues after a week or so with them. Of course, it's probably going to be hard - you need to actually find people to meet and make sure 'f' doesn't think bad things about you for getting new friends... But you really should try this, for your own mental health.
I wish you luck with this issue.

Tell you the truth guys, I think telling Sarah to abandon F isn't right. In my opinion, I think F holds Sarah in high regard, the reason F is so overprotective and sensitive about het being that F cares about Sarah and doesn't want to lose her, being a bitch along the way. I'll go ahead and assume that F doesn't even have other friends judging by the behaviour. So I feel that abandoning her and finding new friends just isn't right.

>>14 No, F is obsessive, possesive, inconsiderate, self-righteous, and controlling.

I hope that some how you are able to make your friend pay attention to you and actually be able to talk to them seriously.
I sometimes have the same prob about being antisocial but in my case I use my "friends" as crutches most of the time. :/
It sucks to say it but the only thing I think you can do now is just tell them to back off, and grow up. Tell them to get their act together or you wont be their friend. Be straight and stand strong. They will come around once they take the time to think about it.
I honestly think that your problem isn't considered a crutch. I see it as "f" is holding you back.
but what do I know...

be blunt with f. tell him/her that he/she has to get over their problem or you can't be his/her friend because you need other friends than just that person. and if you are just using them as a crutch you need to try and ignore the part of you saying "don't do it" and the anxiety of trying to talk to others.

Just tell her you dont want her to talk to you again...
Leave her at that.
You can brace yourself and become a new person anytime you want.
Dump the crutch and start talking to people. People like honesty, tell them youre lonely is fine too. Be brave