I have always been the type to keep to myself and tries to show no emotion what so ever,but for some reason people still cling to me.
One day a friend of mine asked me to come over. When I went over he was pretty much a big mess of emotions.He kept going on about some pretty deep stuff,and I didn't know what to do so I gave him my same old "man,that sucks." routine.About three weeks later I saw medics and police lined up at his apartment. He had committed suicide.
I feel as if it's my fault because it is! If I had just broken out of my shell for five fucking minutes he would still be here today! We would still be able to hang out like we used to,and his fiance wouldn't be on the verge of killing herself! I feel like I'm the worst women/friend in the world! God,help,can someone just tell me what to do?!

>>1 Absolutely nothing. It's done, and there's no way you can change that. That's just the reality of how it is.All you can do is accept it and move on.

Kohae:
I won't say that I completly understand you because I don`t, but I can say for sure that is NOT your fault. I know the feeling of wanting to take ones life because I wanted to kill myself I didn`t know what to say so I kept everything to myself.I didn`t do it because I was scared but I didn`t want to live either and continue to live an empty life but eventually I told everyone about it.They have helped me get overthis.
What I really want to say is do not blame yourself ,I don`t know what was your friend thinking when he killed himself but I know for expirence that he tought that it was for the best.Both you and I know it wasn`t but the only thing you can do for him right know is to continue to live for both your sake and his, because eventougth He died, He will always be with you in your memories and your heart.
learn from this expirience and don`t run away from the past.
Ask for help from your friend and family and show the world what you really belive and feel.
I hope you get better and rembember you are not alone and the worls isn`t as bad as you think :).

I agree with >>3
There is no way you could predict that happening. Don't blame yourself for the impossible. Live with him in your memory and never forget him. That's the best thing you can do.
At least he's at peace now. Don't make his death be the bane or your existence, live for him if not for you.
Be strong :) and also look after his fiancé, don't let her forget: life is a pain but the world isn't horrible so live for him if not for yourself