The one who I am in love with...
Truly in love with,
Will never love me back.
I feel numb with all others.
He can lie.
But He can't fool me, we've known each other too long for that.
He loves another girl. She treats him worse than dirt.
I'd give him anything he wants and more...

He doesn't want what I have to offer.
He said I was pretty.
He said he liked me.

But in his current state, how could he be with me?
He would be playing with my feelings, again. As he put it..
I couldn't deny that.
But I honestly don't care.
He can do what he will with me. He can hurt me. He can play with my feelings.
I just want him. At any cost.

I tried to move on, more than once. None worked out. If anything they hurt me to my very soul. I knew I was only lying to myself. But even if the pain of him hurting me, is a bittersweet taste I now welcome. I've become accustomed to it..
He's too oblivious to see that I'm an open book, and my pages have been ripped out, one by one.
...
What is wrong with me?
I want to move on but I can't. It's been two years. So, What's wrong with me?

Maybe its just cause you've known him for ao long. Try playing hard to gey. Act like you dont have those kind of feelings for him and maybe he'll come chasing after