I seem to come here often nowadays. Don't really have anywhere else to just talk about things I guess. Its hard enough knowing that no matter how hard I try, most girls i'm interested in just shrug me off as if I were no more than a harmless insect. Knowing that my own Father doesn't like what I've become makes life alot harder. My dad was a football player when he was in High School. He had hoped that me and my brother would take after him. One of us be a rockstar and the other a football player, or both us with the same. My dad wasn't a rockstar, but it was his favorite kind of music. However, we turned out quite different than he expected. Before my parents divorce, it looked as though I would take after him, however, afterwards, that hope slowly vanished.

I sank into a corner and isolated myself from the world. Video games and my computer were my best friends. Not long into 6th grade, I became laid back, and eventually, due to lack of studying because my friends always wanted to hang out, I became overly lazy. I slacked off my work, I didn't want to do much of anything. I don't like sports. I prefer a computer and staying indoors where things are more controlled. I've been out of shape a while, but it never hit me as hard as it has lately. I'm in 10th grade now. Almost 3/4 done with the school year. I've been having all sorts of pains. I realized how much my neck was bent, how much I was hunched over. I'm gaining weight, though not that much to throw off my thin appearance. Tonight, he told me yet again that i'm lazy.

He's told me before about what he had hoped for us and how different we are. I turned into a genius who settles for C's and B's, a gamer, and computer enthusiast who prefers working alone or just plain being alone in silence with comforting music. My brother turned into a genius train engineer, currently working on the railroad.

It just hurts me when I hear the things my dad thinks about us. We love him to death and he loves us as much the same, but you can see it in his face that he's disappointed with the way things turned out.

He may be in a bit of luck. Normally i'm not motivated enough to work out or anything, but I started playing Katawa Shoujo this week and it really made me think alot. More than any game has done. I felt things that I hadn't felt in the longest time. So i've decided to start working out more, and instead of playing basketball suring our 20 minute warmup period in gym class every morning, 5 days a week, i'm going to run. Maybe i'll start studying too, but on that account I'm still not sure. Its a long shot.

Good luck with your dad. I hope you can do all you want. Just, don't change for him, change because you want to.

I wouldn't dream of changing myself for someone else. I tell it to some of my friends all the time. No one has ever made me really think about my life before. Katawa Shoujo got me to do it and look at all my mistakes and screw-ups. Just to name a few among many other things.

dude i get ya on that one, dont let your dad's view of you affect how you feel about yourself, cuz its not his life its yours. and if theres something about you that you dont like then its in your power to change it, not his, school college sports games etc. its all your decision and not his to try and live vicariously through

Good luck.I hope everything turns out right.

I somewhat know how you feel. My parents always wanted me to be athletic ever since I was little and I've done all sorts of sports like baseball, soccer, and hockey, but I hated them all. I hate most physical activity. I spend all my day at the computer watching anime, on Tumblr, or gaming. I never study and only do homework if I know I can't copy off someone's at lunch.

I'm not at the point where I've lost all hope yet, but I'm getting there. My grades are slowly slipping and so is my social life. The importance of friends is shrinking everyday. I used to be really popular at school, but as time went on I stopped hanging out with people and made excuses to stay home and be on the computer.

But even so I find motivation, in anime especially. I started studying more and my grades are going up little by little, and I'm going to the gym somewhat more than before. I read your other post about wanting to go to boarding school and starting fresh, and last month that would've sounded like a good idea to me, but think about. You would waste all that money to go to boarding school to start fresh only to mess up again. You can never instantly change. It takes time. So keep on going even if you want to quit. It's important to be physically fit and have good grades.

This day just got worse for me. He just came into my room and told me that since I forgot to take out the trash and vacuum and take a shower, that tomorrow i'm grounded from both my computer and my Xbox. A whole day of boredom. He said we can still play board games, watch a movie, and watch TV, but thats not fun to me. Thats boredom.Board games take too much time and then you just play another one like you didn't just play one. I'm in freaking tears right now. He just walked into my room and put his hands on the edge of my bed, looked over to me, and looked me in the eye and said "I'm disappointed in you," Kinda cements the point right?