i really about giving up on everything. i not doing well in colege, the shit i been through keeps coming back. i got no job, car or girlfriend. my parents yell at me, my siblings look down upon me. i think it would better if the world has one less person in it. no matter what i say or do. it seems like im going nowhere. i can't do anything right. i can't live on any longer. i don't know what to do anymore

I think we all feel like giving up on life sometimes, but let's face it there are people who want us to live. Maybe you don't have a girlfriend and your family might not be proud of you but I'm sure you must have at least one friend. You should just focus on your studies a little more if you're not doing so well in college. A car isn't exactly necessary but once you do better in college keep on continuing a search for a job. I'm not gonna lie I do feel like giving up on life sometimes and I do think that the world would be better off without me. But I do have my friends and dreams that push me to keep living. I hope you feel better soon.

even with my friends, it seems i can't. i hate myself. i really want to leave this world. even if there is someone looking over me, they are giving my me challenges that i can't pass. i think im done. no one can help me.

I wish people had my outlook sometimes~

Some pointers: Drop all of the dumb shit, and move on. Your family gives you too much trouble? Tell them, then cut ties. No girlfriend? Go make some worthwhile friends, and choose from that selection. No job? Go put in applications. Seriously, that crap helps. Nobody will hire you if you don't apply. Not doing well in college? Good. You've discovered something you probably don't want to do anyways. Drop it and do something you'll like more.

A part of living a good life is living it for yourself. If you don't enjoy something, and it's not ABSOLUTELY essential to your survival (like air, water, etc.), then fuck it and find something better.

I can't tell you exactly how to get better without being in your shoes directly, so this is the best I can do. Take this principle and apply it to yourself, and it will help.

When I'm working, nothing else matters. My mom could have died and I wouldn't even acknowledge it until my job is done. If I'm not enjoying myself someplace, I leave. If I don't like doing something (that isn't essential), then I don't do it.

The answers are so simple, and the result is something truly astounding. My own life improved drastically just by giving this a shot.

The trick is to not take things too far, because that might land you in jail. Or on the streets. Use good judgement, really.

/disorganizedadvice

Life is a wonderful thing, if you're willing to take risks. The experiences you can get from jumping outside the 'safe zone' are astounding. I hope you can take this and run with it, I'm sure it will help ^_^

Have you tried talking with your family about the problems they give you? If you told them how you feel things might change. And even if they don't change then there are some challenges that make us stronger. With failure comes a learning experience.

I'm not a doctor, but I prescribe you 500 mgs of cowboy the fuck up.

You won't get anywhere feeling sorry for yourself, and if you keep this shit up you'll be back here in ten years saying you're a 30 year old who has never been in a relationship because once upon a time when computers weren't sentient he was told "no" by a girl who was lost in World War 4.

Besides us, who are you talking to about this? Anyone? Do your parents know? Have you told off your siblings? Maybe something as simple as taking advantage of a counselor on your campus. Have you taken action?

I knew guys like you in high school. Wallowing in an endless spiral of self-pity. You don't really want to be happy, because when you're unhappy that's the ultimate self indulgence, and being happy would mean you wouldn't be able to spend all of your time paying attention to yourself.

Take some action. Nobody's holding you back but yourself and your own preconceived notions. Don't have a girlfriend? Who the fuck cares? What piss-filled deity told you you had to have a girlfriend? You can be happy by yourself and don't you let anyone tell you otherwise. You don't need some lecherous female sucking up your time and energy, especially during college.

Good god, man. Your ancestors used to beat wild sheep to death and eat mutton with their fists. You are the product of a hundred thousand generations of men who built empires with their bare hands and hunted animals larger than themselves with spears they sharpened.

You're going to look life in the eye and punch it in the face and walk away like this happy son of a bitch because who the fuck's going to stop you?

i haven't talk to my parents or my siblings about it. i need to take responsibility for everything. im afraid of asking help because it makes me look weak. i been spoon feed all my life and i need to do everything on my own. i don't want to give up on college because my parents will get made for wasting their time and money on me. putting application i can do, but i want to have a girl who can understand me and doesn't care what i do or who i am.

1) Talk to them. How are they supposed to know how you feel if you don't say it? They can't, and that's that :T So go talk with them.

2) Asking for help does not make you weak. You can't be expected to know everything. But, rather than asking for complete help, ask about specific details. This way a good portion of the work is still genuinely yours, and the most confusing parts are the places you get help on.

- Think of it like learning to drive a stick-shift car, after having driven an automatic for your entire life. You know the rules of the road, you don't need help with that. But how are you supposed to make the car move unless somebody explains it to you? You can't. Well, I guess you could, but it's far more work than it needs to be.

People rely on one another to get things done. Very few people on the surface of this planet can function entirely on their own. I'm good at what I do, but on my own I'm severely limited. I need others around to help me, else I will fail.

3) You don't have to give up on college as a whole. There are other options. You could talk with them about changing to something that you feel you will enjoy more, or switching to a college with an environment that better suites you. I know people who have gone both routes and been successful.

4) The girl... Well, only time will tell. Finding people (in general, male OR female) that are like that is extremely difficult. Do you want to be successful in a career, or successful in a relationship? Both take up insane amounts of your time. Choose the one that will make you the happiest, and make the other a secondary objective.

Most of this just takes initiative. None of these things are difficult. Almost 100% of what I've said comes from personal experience.

Hope this is helping, and I'd be glad to help further if you so wish ^_^

Really, suicide is pointless in my opinion.No matter what you believe in,whether heaven/hell or reincarnation, you're the same wherever you go(excluding if you're atheist).So, you might as well have fun with the game we call life.

>> i can't talk to them about this. what i feel and what I've done, it's better that they don't know about it. yeah i don't know everything,but what has happened to me is my fault so i have to do this alone. my parents think what im interested is waste of time (video games, anime,and music). well i want both, but mostly a relationship since i never had one. Thanks for the help though

Neku,

how many threads are you going to post about your angsting?

It gets less credible with each successive post, and it's almost as if you're making an active effort to never fix your own damned problems. Are you attention whoring, or exaggerating? It has to be one of those. It's gone well beyond the point where I could believe you have problems as serious as you make them sound.

>>12 this

>>12 He's made multiple threads? Well shit. Shows how busy I've been lately.

My level of care is suddenly back to zero. Good luck, Neku, but pretty much what Misuto said. Either go do something about it or quit whining.

dont give up! or end it all!

Neku sometimes we are just utterly defeated by life, it happens to the best of us. I know you feel ashamed to admit your weakness to your parents but it looks like this is something you must do. I know how it feels to feel like you don't deserve other people's help because you don't want to rely on anyone else anymore and take charge of your own life. But even my eldest brother moved back in with my mother because he could not live on his own. It alright; you family cares about you and this is another time that you need their help. One day you will become strong; and never forget about the people who helped you ether because they will also need your help as well someday.
As for everything else you wanted; a car a GF a job. Take it slowly one step at a time, in my opinion you should get a job first; take care of your self before you help others you know?
I was also week once, hell I still am but I never gave up. I just wised up and took life head on. Im stronger than I used to be but I still try to become stronger everyday. It's a life time proses but hell if I could do it anyone can. Don't give up life is beautiful and you will see it someday.

well im sorry. im a late teen going through puberty and i really don't have anyone to talk to about this

Neku,
man the FUCK up.I'm sorry for being so rude,but, damn seeing posts like this gets me pissed. Probably because it reminds me of myself.If you need someone to talk to, then please, open up a chat-room.I promise, if you make one, I will talk to you and try to comfort you, but please, stop making so many threads with the same emo view-point, it seems like you WANT problems, and you aren't doing anything about them on purpose.
If you need someone to talk to, then open a chat-room with something like "I need help" or "I need someone to talk to", maybe people will listen, I know I would.

Giving up is not the answer!

I don't know your exact circumstances, but I'm sure that many people would be very sad to lose you! Your family and friends will support you if you let them.

College is often a bit of a wake-up call for students. I had trouble myself at first. But I'm sure you can manage to pass if you put your mind to it!

Being at a low point in life, whether you have clinical depression or you're just sad, is also tough. And feeling rudderless is never fun. These are things everyone experiences. I'm dealing with OHGODIMANADULTWHATNOW syndrome myself ATM. But people will understand if you talk to them! Tell people what's wrong if something is upsetting you. Your family can't read your mind.

I hope that helps.

>>17

Neku,

I am 18.

Puberty wasn't that bad.

Grow a pair.

That is all.

Don't Give up!
Life is not always going to be easy and theres going to be road bumps along the way but, that doesn't mean you just stop trying. Your going to have to learn how to cope and it won't just be some f your friends and family cheering you on there will be the Dollars cheering you on too. Don't throw away your life because I can gurantee you that there is at least one person who has it alot harder than you do and, they're learning how to cope too. If you need help all you have to do is ask and if living foryourself isn't enough of a drive for your live for someone else. Personally I am the kindof person who will ALWAYS put other before myself. I would much rather spend my days tying to help someone else find happiness rather than my own so, you can be like that too. Find someone who needs you because yor not worthless and your not a failure, your not considered a failure until you've completely 100% given up. So, pick yourself up and keep moving forward because I know that I'll personally be cheering you on ^^ Go! Neku Go! You can do anything! Even when the world has Punched, Pounded, and, Kicked you to the ground I KNOW that YOU have the STRENGTH to keep going.

>>20

Haha, no way, 18? From your most recent posts I pictured you in your mid-30's. Old enough to out debate most people but young enough to retain some of that "Don't fuck with me" attitude.

On topic:

I can't say from personal experience what it's like to want to kill myself. I've always found ways of maintaining a solid link to this world. You know, something worth holding on to that that nosey bastard death would otherwise keep from me.

What was that saying? The world isn't as bad as you think.

>>22 He is actually 32. I've seen the wrinkles and the mid-life crisis transportation. It's red, shiny and shaped like a penis.

>1 Also. I think it's very sad (actually, no I don't, I think it's hilariously retarded) that you seem think that having a girlfriend will solve your problems. From what I've read so far, you sound like a reclusive mess of a person. Going into a relationship will not benefit either of the two parties concerned. Hell, it'll probably fuck you up even more once the relationship breaks down and you sink further down into your sorry spiral of loathing and self-contempt. Which I find highly amusing.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is, don't rely on other people to solve your shit for you. Hell, I'd feel sorry (but only slightly, my regards for other people is pretty low) for whoever would choose to date you. I mean, you're a pretty sorry excuse for a human being at this point in time.

But on a nicer note, I do believe it would be highly beneficial for you to speak to somebody at the problems weighing on your mind. Maybe not your parents, but perhaps there are people at your college, like counsellors or something. Or maybe even a sympathetic relative. What's important here is that you find someone that you feel you can trust enough to talk to about your problems. Another person's perspective might help you in finding some kind of solution for things.

I had felt like that before, feeling like I can't do anything right. But, I think you just have to stop worrying about all this things.
Don't mind if you can't do this and that right. You want to get better, right? So, first, stop saying this things, it will affect yourself and you won't even find a way. And don't say it like you're the worst person and want to die. Many people suffers more than you. You have to look up for something that can inspire you. If you have a goal you want to achieve, try your best, don't give up. And sometimes you have to look down, at people that have a worse life than you. You should be glad that you still can go to college, have parents (even though they are yelling at you).
Stop thinking about all the failure and just try your best, try thinking in a different perspective. You don't really have to get a girlfriend, if you want someone to understand you and be with you for who you are, I'm sure, someone is there for you, and if you think there isn't, later on you will. You don't have to rush things up.

You said you hate yourself, than how can you have a girlfriend if you can't love yourself. I believe no one is more useless than the other, you just can't see it. So don't think you can't do anything, you can, if you try hard.

And just do what you thinks you need to. It's okay to look weak, I think. No one is strong by themselves anyway. If you need help, search for it.

And sometimes, you have to go outside your comfort zone. If you want to be better at college, lessen your time on anime and games. If you don't take action nothing will come out, you have to change yourself-or your bad habits, to get the goal. Force yourself to do it, but don't be too hard too.

Just be positive and don't rush things up. I hope this help, because I'm just high school girl. Sorry for the long reply.

i do appreciated what everyone is saying. i know i repost on my life, but i really got one left to talk to. i don't know if i can go back to my first college. im thinking that my parents want to do better than they did. i really don't know what im doing. i don't know what to do with my life. college is not for everyone, that's why giving up on it would be better. finding a job is not easy,but i know i can find one. i know that finding a girl that im looking for is going to be awhile so i let that be. i hope life gets better for me

Dont give up that a bad thing to do after giving there nothing else telling you you should go on even when you feel like shit get back up and dont give up if I would give up after half the shit i was in football team robotic culb and school and more personal stuff i would be a durg user or wrost dead push youself think dont second guess you self when down just think what you can do better

i'll try not to

Well, you could have divorced parents; having to go to a family funeral each year watching your family just talk like it is just a potato sack in a casket...And you should just not care what your siblings say, especially if one of them is older than you and lives on welfare and has been to a mental institute and is still ignorant enough to think that she is smarter than a normal person. So just keep at the college and remember the reason you go.

Also you sound like you got a pupose to keep on living.

yeah i don't have that, but i still don't have a purpose

Then live for the sake of living. It's what most of us do whether we have realized it or not

You know, someone who had really lost all purpose in their lives wouldn't even post about it on a large public community, they would just kill themselves.

The fact you did means you don't actually want to kill yourself, and you're just scraping the pan for attention at this point.

Seriously, do you think you're the only one whose parents yell at them? Whose siblings don't get along with them? You might be of the few that get "special snowflake" syndrome and thing you have it worse than absolutely everyone else in the world. I'm only responding like this because you've complained about it so many times I want to put a stop to it already.

There was a point in my life where my parents would tell me almost nothing besides my failures in life; they had something to yell at me for every single day I came home from school, and my brother and I never got along well at all. He looked down on me, and he was 6 years older than me. I didn't really have anyone to turn to. You know what I did?

What? No, I didn't consider suicide, are you a retard?

I fucking dealt with it. Because I knew my life wasn't as bad as I was making it out to be, and I was right in the end. I laughed at the thought of people in my situation just giving up, because of how trivial the situation was. If you can't stand one transient hardship in your life, then how the hell are you going to ever make it in the real world, where shit is easily ten times as stressful? You better suck it the fuck up, ASAP. You're already in college, god damnit, this is when you're supposed to be a motherfucking adult human being and be independent.

Also consider the possibility that you are disliked because you have a pessimistic attitude about every fucking thing. Nobody wants to hang around someone who is hopeless, and people who have to deal with that (your family) will be disdainful towards that personality, and try to shove it in the opposite direction. Nobody's going to pander to your every complaint just because you're "sad." Grow up and stop being a selfish pussy.

It literally infuriates me that you haven't grown out of the mindset that most people see through by the time they're fucking 15 years old.

Look, even though things may be worse than it seems, things will come up for you. Some things like getting something you didn't know you'd get that's good. To be honest, I thought about dying too because of my complicated child life. But, everyone here made me change my mind about dying. I live a life like you too. I know how you feel and I am VERY younger than most of you. I didn't give up even though everything was pressuring me. Though people in your life are hard on you don't give up. Not ever. What's happening to you happened to me before. I felt like I had no place to turn... But, until when you actually make your choice to die don't. Think of your friends here. What would they feel? What would they think? Of course, they wouldn't feel happy. They'd miss you. So don't you turn your back on them and just leave them. Stay alive and find what you need. When you do, things for you will be better. Plus, don't only take my advice but everyone else's. Look at all the help your receiveing from your friends. There are other people in the world who actually want to help you like us. Everyone helping you are actually different people of any age anywhere in the world so don't treat yourself like a worthless scum because your not.

Oh and by the way, I'm both younger than you and I'm also in puberty too and I know where your coming from

>>32 You are very right Misuto, and why is there people like that?