I'll go first:

Ever since I was growing up with my friends, I was nothing but a Halloween decoration to them. My outside personality is always violent, like I would threaten to bomb their house as a joke and they liked that about me. Sometimes, I would show them my inside personality which is the soft side of myself, but they would only give me an awkward silence and move on to the next subject because I guess they're not used to my true self. It got worse through highschool, too. All they would talk about is themselves and I would stay out of the group, but I was really happy that I did that because I wouldn't bring their sadness upon myself. I'm a Senior in highschool in third trimester now and all my friends graduated after second trimester. I skip lunch now because I'm afraid to eat by myself.

i know how you feel. it's hard for friends to accept your true self. i know i been there before. despite that i actually had close friends to accept me. if they don't like who you are, then maybe the are not your friends. i know it's hard to be accepted by others but someone will understand you. the world isn't as bad as you think

Yea, it really is hard to find friends that will accept me who I am. I'm just really pissed off that they always ditch me to go somewhere else. I even asked them that they should stay for lunch at school, but they bluntly said "No." I won't give up finding friends though. :)

i hope you find some close friends. it will all get better. in college you find there's more people who are like you or myself out there. it great because they know what's up

My friends support me and my crazy endeavors most of the time. Other times they just shake their heads at me. They're a fun group of people to get lost in pointless conversations with. And they usually keep me out of trouble. Which, from what they say, sounds very difficult....

My friends and I are weird. I have a friend who has a sword and threatens to kill boys when they mess with us. I tell her to sick them. :3

My friends usually support and like me a lot..but then sometimes they just get annoyed at me for no reason. Then again I only have five close friends..plus I'm really an introvert. Oh well. They don't even defend each other.

I ever support my friend to reply to a boy that ever ask her to go out with him.. but, when at class, they do a strange action, a teacher have already ask them to stop, and when i ask all my friend, they said that they are annoyed with this couple act.. so, i just said to a chairman at school, and the chairman said that they should end their relationship.. after that, my friend hates me.. but she still talk to me.. and once again.. i said to the chairman again about that couple act, how they k*issed on the middle of the class.. and she hates me more.. but still, she still talked to me.. after that, on the next day, our report has come and the boy, needs to go to the other school.. coz the principle said that he cant up to a new grade.. and the girl has been breaked up by his ex-bf coz he got a new girl.. and now she really hates me.. and never talked to me again. + she mock me. quip me.. (cant take it anymore) phew...

Sorry bad english and soooooo looooooooonnnngggggg

i know exactly how you feel. personally, i think you should get better friends.

My friends are fantastic (and I mean my friends, not the people I still hang with just to avoid upsetting my real friends). They are generally really supportive, and have helped me through more than one difficult patch. Sure, we argue, but in the end we get over our differences and keep on going. I trust them, and most of them trust me. It's a pretty sweet relationship I've got with all of them.

>>10 I envy you. TT_TT

I'm pretty close with my friends lol. We do a lot of things together, go to a lot of places together, and talk on Skype for god knows how long everyday, every night of the week. They're a funny bunch, and they're very smart people. They're great to be around with, ya know? Definitely great influences to my life.

My friends are friggin' badass. We spend our lives abusing one another out of pure amusement. However, despite this, we're there for each other if there is something that needs to be done or discussed. If something bad happened, you've always got a shoulder to cry on, and you've always got a couple of nice living punching bags to get the stress out. We don't judge each other, but we do all have completely different interests. The thing that brings us together is just that we're so open-minded.

Hm. Interesting question. I have two really close friends, and a few moderately-close friends that I talk to pretty frequently.

Close Friends:

Chris. Chris is one of the greatest people I've ever met. I've known him for about 14 years, and I'm only 17. We've been bros essentially since birth, and it's been sweet having each other for all of these years. Whenever one of us needs something, we just ask and it gets done without any questions asked. We'll tease each other on occasion, but at heart it's really just because we understand one another after having been around each other for so long. He's also my right hand man when it comes to getting a job done; one of very few people that I genuinely consider 100% reliable for anything at all ever.

Korbin. Korbin has been a buddy of mine for about... 3-4 years now, I think. He showed up freshman year as a new kid in the district, and got sucked in to my little fucked-up social group. Before long we were considered twins; both of us were oddballs with nearly identical haircuts and the same height and build. We had one kid seriously convinced that we're related, and recently found out that some people still think we're related. We've been there for one another practically since we met; we both reached out to the other when we thought that they needed someone to talk to. He's also a motherfucking genius when it comes to doing lighting on a shit budget, and fixing my car when I'm broken down somewhere.

These are my two closest bros, and I hope we stay that way for many years to come. They're two people of a small list that will have a way to contact me once I'm moved out. Planning a trip over to the dunes with them and their trucks for when we're graduated, one last hoorah before anybody goes off to college.

Good Friends

Zack. Zack is an awesome dude in general. I've known him for several years, but didn't really talk to him much until high school. Now I'm promoting his band whenever I get the chance, and we'll often wonder into discussion about some pretty random things. His insight is surprising, compared to what I would have expected from anybody else like him.

Kait. Kait is a pretty awesome chic. I feel bad for wasting a year of her life on dating me, but at the same time it was an awesome experience and I think we both got something from it. She holds a lot of my same values, and I think she'll really go far if she puts them to a better use than I have.

Sean. Sean, easily one of the most supportive dudes I've ever met. We don't talk as much as I'd like, otherwise he'd be up there with the close friends. It saddens me that I don't get to see him as much though, as he's touring the country with Disney on Ice (no idea which one). Though, it was a little odd to hear he had a crush on me a few years ago ^_^'

Mom. Yes, my mom is on here. She's one of the people I can really say I owe most of my life to. Not in a maternal way, but because she's been so supportive of my horseshittery, and completely disregarded the fact that I'm probably going to land flat on my ass broke some day and be on her doorstep asking for a room.

There are some others, but these are the most prominent. I figure I'm close to an invisible character limit, anyhow, so I'm finished here :P

my friends from my old school would never listen to me. If i call them or tap them to say something they would just ignore me. but then when they need me im always listening and being nice. most of the time they do bad stuff even when i tell them not to. They would always get into trouble and when i tell them " u should have listened to me" they get mad. but its realy true because they never listen to me. i dont no if its because im quiet or not popular and sometimes weird. most of the time when i give an idea they say its stupid and then after they try everyone elses idea, they try mines and it works. and when i feel bad they look at me and walk away but when they feel bad i ask them whats rong and then try to make them feel better. when i let them use my stuff or give them some of whet i have, they dont return it and say " i never borrowed anything from u " and they lie. the new people i meet say im nice. when i want to be mean i have to have mercey and be nice to them,but they are always mean to me. i feel bad for people when im mean. when i transfered schools and came back to see them the next day they said they missed me . they only missed me because they need me to help them in school or lend (give) them my stuff. when i say something more me and less nice they say" wow {myschool} changed u" i say no and then they say yes. i just walk away with a smile on my face as if they intertained me. when they say that it realy makes me mad, not happy. i am always to NICE to say something mean back, like the true me would. when i was younger the true me wasnt mean. the true me was nice. but now the true me is mean. i always want to be nice but the people around dont feel the same way. i dont think i have any real friends. but i dont like doing stuff by myself or being lonely. it makes me feel like im supposed to be hanging out with someone. when i see my friends hanging out with eachother and having fun and laughing i just turn my head and walk away. whats the point of going over there if they are just going to ignore me? when i call them quietly i dont realize im quiet so i call them louder and louder until i have to scream. when i scream their names the look at me and scream what! like they answered me and i kept calling them. then they just walk away . then i feel bad and i dont want to say anything to them. its anymore. its like they dont have time for me and when they need something im a store they can get it from.

I used to hangout with my childhood friends since Kindergarten up to 7th grade. They were pretty cool people;friendly, accepting. Then all that changed. Ever since the bf/gf stuff were popular in middle school, my friends became boy/girl-crazy, always distracted. They completely ignored me and went to the popular side. I've realized that I became stronger and did better on my grades than my former friends when I started hanging out with friends that value more things, rather than the bf/gf craze.

>>16 I feel the same way. I had three or four friends back in grade school and middle school. We used to play a game every time we ran into each other, but then it all changed in high school. They all paid attention to being popular. :(

Don't worry, you'll find good friends eventually. :)

>>15 i know how u feeeeell >< my friends also do that because i'm not popular.. i am listening to them, and they aren't listening to me.. thats why.. i told u.. go find another friends, and remember, u must be loud and cheerful.. XD
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I have friends, but then again I dont. The person that is like the closest in history to understanding my, and accepting my strange is pulling away from me... growing up. My bro, he's in the military, but as soon as I met him, I knew we wouldn't be friends forever. I have something like a little brother across the street, but what can I say he's like my little annoying brother. I'm different with all of them, and I'm not sure if I can be my true self around them because I dont know who I am. I'm the kid who ate alone if they wern't there. Thats who I am, I prefer to be alone, and without me saying, thats how people treat me. After you push people away for so long, n one bothers to come in...

Everyone is Reaper's "friend" but I have 3 REALLY CLOSE friends. One of them is a grade above me, so I don't talk to him much.(only on the bus and in the hallways.) He is my gaming bro. My other 2 close friends, well, best friends are supposed to embarrass each other, and that's what we do. I can tell those 3 ANYTHING. Those 3 treat me pretty well, unlike most people. My one not-so-close "friend", I just can't stand him. I have bipolar disorder, and I told him about it, now he makes jokes and I can't stand it. As with people I don't really talk to, they aren't the nicest people to me(that's probably because I'm not the skinniest guy out there.)

I'm thankful and lucky to have my friends, when I started middle school all I had was just two friends.Then later on I gained more I have many friends, but i have Five main friends. Me and my fiends make fun of each other, but we won't allow any one else to make fun of us.

i used to be friends with these three girls. i had known two of them since elementary school and i believed them to be my best friends. the other i met in highschool but also considered a best friend. this all happened last year; one of them had started acting odd, she acted like she didn't like me all of a sudden, only talking to me if i talked to her and stuff like that, although when i asked her about it, she denied it and said nothing was wrong. in the beginning it wasn't as serious so i didn't think to much about it. then i was absent for around a month because of a medical problem called orbital myositis. the whole time i was gone from school none of them texted, called or visited me. it made me feel really shitty that no one seemed to even care that i was gone from school and in so much pain. they didn't even bother to find out why i suddenly stopped going to school for a whole month. then i got back to school and they didn't even care. they didn't ask how i was or why i hadn't been at school. and these were my suposed best friends. people who i wasn't even close to, who i only said hi in passing to cared more than they did. it really hurt me and made me feel like i was completely unimportant. then they started ditching me, leaving for lunch and recess without me leaving me to spend it alone. when i tried bringing this all up to some of my other friends they acted like it was nothing. they didn't even care. and they didn't take the time to see how much it was hurting me. eventualy i decided to screw it and find other people to hang out with. i now have different firends and i'm happy with them. but the one thing i can't get over is how easily they were able to just throw me aside. not caring the least bit for my feelings. i can't believe i was once friends with such horrible people.

I'm on the football team so it's like a brotherhood between me and the rest of my friends on the team. I never really had any kind of a friend problem.

>>22 I feel your pain. That's how my friends were like too. They started leaving for lunch and when I asked them to stay they bluntly said, "No." I'm happy that you found new friends to hang out with. I also met new people, too. Making new friends is like breathing fresh air in and it feels wonderful! :)

>>24 thanks
It made me really happy to know that someone was listening. Your the first person I told this to that actually seemed to care and even understand :)
And I agree, it is like a breath of fresh air ;D

Oh. My friends.

Well. I had really awesome friends back in middle school. They were very open and taught me a lot of stuff, like that the world isn't a happy place T3T They truly and genuinely cared for me. There was a misunderstanding though, and we had a fall out come highschool time.

My friends in highschool... I've hung out with four different sets of people all four years OTL
First year I had three separate friends. Two from the same middle school and one I took karate with. I group hopped.. er, friend hopped really.. that year, getting to know the nice (anti-social) people cuz the school was very cliquey right from the beginning, and everyone stuck with people they knew in their old school I: I met some really interesting people too. Nothing better describes them than real-life trolls. |:

Second year, one of the friends and I were joined by a new kid. We ate lunch together and went through all the motions of "being best friends." But that was all there was, just comfort... the safety of having a socially acceptable friendship. But in the back of my head I was aware that this thing we had wasn't nearly as precious as my friendship in middle school /:

Third year came along~
Both friends from ^ moved away |: Just my luck. But by then I've become friends with most of the asian people. So I chilled with them. They're really nice and stuff. But same with my second year friends; we didn't really have the same interests and I hung out with them only cuz I didn't know who else to hang out with. I tried to convert myself what the liked and crap to fit in more but that didn't really work out. I didn't open up to them that much. And they didn't either. I met a couple non-shallow sophomores and I consider them close friends. Had a bf and stuff. I think was junior year was also when I watched durarara. Made some great friends through the dollars owo It was a rather cupcake-y life. Only with hard-ass classes.

This year!! This year I've broken off from my asian peeps cuz all they talk about is school and meaningless stuff V: I've become attached to a fellow anti-socialite.. and then another. We don't really match well. We stick together mostly because we have chem the next period and we do our homework together then. One of them is this really self-important, obnoxious elitist that gets on my nerves half the time. God she talks so much. Then she complains about how she has no friends but us. Gee I wonder why. The other is really pretty but really random, awkward and has a I-don't-really-care-about-you temperament. That type of person annoys the fff out of me the most. At least the obnoxious one has a heart |: There are people from the asian group that I hang out with that are really nice, as well as my troll friends although I've drifted apart from them a bit /: there are a few non-shallow peeps I talk to a lot and one who thinks too much. All of my close friends don't play together well I: so I can't say I'm in one huge group of close friends. I have many close friends but they stay away from each other haha.

Overall I'd say the friendships.. not even. /The people I hung out with constantly/.. our friendships were made more out of convenience than anything else. The program I was in is like a puddle of 160 or so people with which I was forced to interact. After four years, we've all gotten to know each other, judging right and left and knowing who we like and not like. I've been in a group friendship but that's not how it is now V: I guess I'm just terrible at finding a group I'm really comfy in. But I fine with my situation. Perpetually group hopping. :3 I love my (not made out of convenience) friends =w=

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For my friends I was a bit distant and an introvert. I didn't have exactly the same interests as them so I didn't talk much with my friends except about our lessons (I was known as one of the diligent people). But we get along pretty well. I'm not the funnest people to be with but that doesn't mean I can't be fun.

For my best friends I was the leader of the group. My best friends have troubles with themselves (best friend A disliked best friend B) and I sat on neutral ground. I hang out with both sides and I joked a lot with them. They told me their problems and I only told my school ones (I kinda wanted to keep my privacy and family problems unknown). We supported each other (mostly I did) in our problems and gave advice. We didn't really meet out of school as most of us preferred indoors.

>>27 *0* Wat..?

>>29 He's bumping.

Friend. Haha. That's a good one.

The whole concept of friendship is a lie in my opinion. I would listen to my friends if they wanted to talk to me, but they don't talk to me. I know absolutely nothing about my friend's personal life. I know absolutely nothing except the facade they put up around people. I know it's facade because they are much like you. They joke around about things that I know they take seriously.

While I'm there if they need me, they are not there for me. The most my friend Narrisa does is share her food, which I do in return. I cannot go to my friends when I'm upset because they say, "You think your life is bad..." and they precede to tell me about their life. It's not like I won't listen or care. They just complain about superficial things and they only talk to me about anything when I try to confide in them.

Alligator has to be the closest thing I have to a true friend. He doesn't judge me based on what other people say, and he doesn't care what they say about me. I don't even think he listens. He's stuck by me and been nice to me even though his friends don't like me. He knows what makes me happy, and he likes to make me happy. I can complain about superficial things with him, and he'll go out of his way to make me happy. We get into a lot of debates, but we're never serious about it. He's probably the only intelligent person I know that doesn't get into drama, gossip, or angst.

I have another friend that's closer to a sister to me. She was my first friend. We had know each other for three years before she moved. After that we had no contact with each other until a year ago. Even after all that, are friendship hasn't changed. She's had a hard life, but we love each other like we love out sisters. She's had a hard life, so I can never talk to her. She will just go on about how her life is worse.

My other best friend, as well as my other friends, I have a hard time with. I know that if we were unable to see each other every day, our friendship would probably die.I guess I can say the same for alligator. All-in-all I don't think any of them would care about me. I have never trusted them enough to tell them about my past and why I act the way I do. I guess that has to do with my trust issues which I have good reason for, but the way they act about the lighter things that I have to deal with, I doubt they'll care.

The only friendships that I think will stay when I move away for college, and the ones that I think will try to keep in touch, are Narrisa, Alligator, and my sister. My other best friend might, but is a little less likely than the others. Other than that, I don't think they even care more than just for idle talk. Dont get me wrong. They are cool people, but I don't think they care. They haven't proven it when they were given the chance. It never had to be something big. They let people talk bad about me and sometimes even believe what other's say. How do I know? Because they've told me this, or I watched them do it.

My lack of good secure friendships have some to do with my trust issues, but they also have some to do with their inability to be their for me when I need it and stand up for me. If I heard someone talking bad about them, I'd stand up for them, and I have in the past. If they won't do the same for me though, which they haven't, then I kind of give up on trying to defend them when they seem to not care about me.

My most recent friends are okay people, I guess. They aren't horrible. I don't know if it's just because I seem depressed or I am just too anti-social, but they like to ignore me alot and leave me out of things. Even though I know most of them don't like me, they just hang out with me because they have got no one better. It's gotten even worse since I have been trying to ignore them too and find new friends, but its kind of hard when they act like nothing is wrong, and treat me politely. (I'm too timid of person to tell them what's wrong.)

>>31

The whole concept of friendship is a lie in my opinion.

What does this even mean? A lie with respect to what?

If you mean that friendship isn't even real, then you and I have something to disagree about.

Friendship is about "give and take" like any other relationship, but the way you treat it parallels how one might use a hammer to fix a squeaky floorboard.

I won't pretend to understand exactly who you are or the misgivings in your life, but I can say this much: real friendships aren't "lies".

i just listen to them. it's interesting how they fuck up their lives. don't really have close friends. just hang out with anyone.

>>31