i posted this on random before realising there was an actual intro..so hmm here we go..
26 years old female from Mauritius. till the age of 16 my life was normal,mom n dad and a little brother, good friends from primary school and secondary school,good grades,spoilt. nothing ever really went wrong in my life besides my grandma's death when i was around 12 and a few disagreements with friends and family. ive never been alone,never had to depend on myself. then something happened.. i started to think about the future from there on life's only been a full question mark. went to university at 19,studied medicine thinking i was going to be of great help to my country if i could become a great psychiatrist. help improve the society by starting from the root which for me is dealing with mental issues early on to avoid having disturbed adults later. more than year's passed since i graduated since ive been back home( oh yeah still single living with my parents,which is not something abnormal in Mauritius,but to me its getting alarming). Failed my medical entrance exam twice already, third trial is in 40 days.
During my university phase,ive had two manic crisis (been diagnosed bipolar...ironic huh), had a few heartbreaks, drank a lot, did drugs(mostly marijuana).
All i ever wanted to do with my life was help others but the only things ive been doing so far is feed off my parents, watch loads of animes( wishing i was in one), sleeping.
technically speaking, i havent been out of the house(except for the yard) in more than three weeks. been trying to study and it does happen once in a while but not enough. hopefully this will change starting the moment i wake up tomorrow.
because seriously all ive ever wanted besides disappearing without leaving a trace and not existing alltogether, all i ever wanted to do is help people be happy.