So I am just new in here and I hope I could get along with everybody in here.
I recently just tried to actually watch durarara.. I don't know what's wrong with me but that didn't really have any appeal to me at first. The anime was awesome! It also got me thinking that there could also be people like me, who doesn't have a real social life and stuck in their own world (anime for me) to escape their miserable reality. So finding this site made me really happy since I could communicate with other people without any fear of being judge, and since my life is experiencing its downfall right now, I might actually being here.. I hope.. Anyway, I will try to be as active as I can and try helping others if possible. I hope I'll be able to chat with someone soon. :)

drrr, its sort of life changing to me. ahah . glad u enjoyed. the ugliness of the society, humans are just filled with motives...

28,000 days is the average days of a human could live up to in his life. i've spent 6,205 days wandering around, making mistakes, improving and shattering hearts. how will i spend my next 21,795 days left of life? how i wish god would put me with someone that would last forever.

just make every day a happy one. even if its not, make full use of it. :)

>>>2 Hello Monster-san.. I don't really know how this numbering really works but I hope I got the jist of this.Thank you very much for welcoming me. I totally agree with you about the humans, I also post something to complain in the personal, that is actually the main reason I don't have actual friends but only acquaintances since it irritates me to listen to pretentious people, that's why I tend not to care about them and shut myself in my world. I also try to make my life satisfying, although alot of people view it as boring but I genuinely have no idea what to do so life would not to be boring. I guess they would say that because they try to do alot of things just to make life enjoyable for them. On the other hand, I am too lazy of a person and I don't even want to try doing anything. It's kinda sad for now but I will keep hoping that things might change. :)

>>>3 I also wish for that too SaLao-san. I keep wishing and wishing but nothing really comes, that's why I am giving up on that ambition. My mom told me I am too young to think of giving up, she said there is still a great man waiting for me in the future. But I kinda feel that I am not really meant to be with anybody, that is why I have decided to live my life by pretending to be happy in the outside until I'll somehow find happiness with friends, if I ever make connect with anyone, and just study hard so I could repay my mom for all the kindness she has shown me for all these time.. That is what I have decided. So I guess what I am trying to say is, do not sulk about it. If there is someone meant for you, it will come but if not, I guess you have to start accepting that and divert your attentions to other things. If you try to divert your attention to other things, you might unexpectedly meet actually someone.. :)

>>5 Arigato tsubasa-san, let's fight and survive. :)

thanks tsubasa-san, i've been wearing the mask of happiness for a long time. too long that not much people had seen me in a really terrible situation or really down mood. i've been wearing it long enough to make people think that is the real me and i've also fallen for my own lies. i've tons of experience being with someone, sacrificed so much, and literally gave out my heart... and what i got in the end is a returned, shattered heart. i am scared of being in a relationship with someone already. more like a mule phobia. as for now, if i try to take the mask of myself. it would be disasterous to my dear friends and to the people i love. i might turn myself away from everyone. i might even lock myself up and live a isolated life.