i have the appearance and expression of one who is extremely crafty and confident, an appearance which i live up to. I claim to love humanity, and greatly enjoy putting people in miserable or chaotic situations in order to observe their reactions. With a thorough understanding of human behavior and tendencies, i am able to determine people's thoughts and predict their reactions with high accuracy. I am cunning and charming, I have a very jolly and mocking personality, speaking informally with most people as if they are close friends and often using nicknames, Although I 'love' all humans, I have no interest in loving individuals, even my own family who I consider friends-not family. if an individual were to love me, I wouldn't be able to return their concentrated love, but would much rather love the individuals enemies and rivals, in an sense of dawning interest. But finishes with a short and subtle plea representing suicide (not mine of course) and that I wishe for them to stay and not stop loving me, because I can't bare losing the only person who returns my love, but again, not romantically since I am rather despised, I am alone. Anyway, I will always keep a thick wall around my heart for that person. my love has been, is, and will always be unilateral. It's not that I never been loved, however, I always denie such love access to me. As long as I love others, I feel connected to them and satisfied. When I want to use you, I do allow you to get close to me, but always keeping a certain distance. Even if someone tries to persuade me to change myself, T would probably never let their words sink into my heart. Actually what I feel for my own person is still a mystery. I also have a masochistic side, claiming that even if my beloved humans treat me like a worm, I would still 'love' them. however, I add that maybe one day I'll be able to meet someone whom I would be dying to be used by and since I am in love with all human race I could survive on my masochist's pleasure alone even if I am used.

and sorry for posting it on the wrong thing last time

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